~BoBBY secretly ConfesseD~

The Final Lap

2009-10-11T17:30:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Here I am, resting awhile at home after spending the whole morning and afternoon at my Community Center, preparing for the Hari Raya show later tonight. Suhaimi Yusoff will be the host and there's some other artist will be coming and one of them is Aliff Aziz. Soo tired man.. If only LB is here, helping and spending time together with me would be great but unfortunately she's on afternoon shift.

So basically, tomorrow would be my first day of 2.2 CP. This would be the final semester for me and finally and hopefully, would start working ASAP. Few wards have already rang me up and was told about the recommendation the NC's had for me to enter their ward. Total, there's 2 wards in SGH, KKH a&e and IMH. Don't wanna to think about all that for now. My main piriority now is to score high for my Cp!!

There would be some discomfort I admit because in my new group, i'm the only GUY!! and also with the same group as 'someone'. So, have to be on a good behaviour and watch my language and restrain myself from being too close. Looking at the brighter side, i would be starting my CP back to LB's ward AGAIN!! cool or what!! First week, all same shift with LB. Second week, same night shift with LB!! OMG! cool...

As for this blog of mine, it would be a little dull as i would like to concerntrate my times with my CP, my exercise regime timetable and my part-time work. Additional, it's kinda hard to rely on lil sis lappy cause she's busy using it for her project as she's graduating soon.

~In this 3 months, i hope you don't mind about our busy schedule and hectic days at work. I hope this would make us stronger and be more career minded as to what we had plan for the future. I always Hearts u dear.~

P.S-->Hical, where's the picture bro and Hanisah, sentosa photo please

Journey back To School [part 2]

2009-10-04T18:42:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

continuation

Date: 29 Sept 09 (Tuesday)

Force to wake up at 11am to go back to ITE SIMEI, just to take 1 bloody form from the CVC. Irritating sia.. very tired with lack of sleep. It was a form for my Ezlink card.. to change to the new CEPAS Student Card. So the troublesome sia. F**** Off from the school around 1pm and off to Tampiness to meet Syafiq awhile.

Talk there talk here. Smoke there smoke here..off i went off from Tamp. While walking to the bus stop 168, saw Ilham with his skateboard, obviously went to skate la. Chat for awhile than we split. Took 168 all the way to Woodland, thought of meeting LB up for awhile but when reached there, she never answer my call or even reply my msges and guess what, she's still sleeping! Time checked: nearly 5pm!!

Piss-off already, i proceed to take the train to CCK, my originate destination, to change my EZ-link. Upon reaching the counter and was to my surprise, the Q was damn super long!! i had enough.. my body is soo tired so i decided to went back home thru bus 172. Reached home around 7pm++. As usual la..quickly bath, eat, pray than off to sleep.

to be continue

A Dream that Awakes Me...

2009-10-04T04:01:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary...

This is weird like hell.. I was sleeping nicely and was woken up by this stupid dream of mine and look at the time now.It's 4am!! All thanx to this bloody dream and now im soo dead fresh that i can't sleep back so here i decided to blog it out cause LB is sleeping and had no one to turn to. Something just struck my mind after the dream i had and i been counting how many days have it been since some of my friends been enrolled into army. Suhaimi, Wan afro, Sabri and Firdaus Mat Pet. Hafitz by right is included in but due to the freak accident he encounter, he's been deferred. So, all of them were from the same unit as a rifle man. They should have finish their confinement by now if i was not wrong.

To all of them, endure the pain and take care of urself.2 years gonna be fast and don't forget to take care of ur well-being and also eat well. No pain, no gain but use your brain if something u can't handle about the trainning. Haiz. To think about all of you, in-fact all of my friends, all of your are in your teens years. just enjoy the youth u had now. love everyone, love ur lover more but love your family the most!!

To the couples out there, be happy and stress free with ur partner. don't do anything foolish as things will happens to u back as what karma have been happening oftenly.Cherish the life you had now and valued the person you're with now. Stop comparing with others as God create humans differently.Stop whinning and complaining but accept the facts and reality in life. Respect anyone on the road of your life that you have meet and be honest with yourself. Hyprocrite and back-stabbing could never bring you anywhere positive but rather these two doings would make ur soul being disturbed by ur concious.

As human, flaws would never ever been slipped thru our fingers as we are not perfect. Seeking forgiveness and repent would be the best medicine to encounter the mishaps we had. The fastest cure in whatever 'sickness' or even 'shortage of life knowledge', seek help in whatever GOD you believe in.

To Baby, I don't even know why I'am saying all this crap and all this nonsense but please forgive me if i let my thoughts out thru this blog of mine. As long as i feel better, as long as my chest does not hurts and as long as i never offend anyone with my words. This is all because of the dream la im like this. Not emo, not mad, not angry but just feeling neutral and calm. Baby, i know it's been a year plus we been together as 1, been 2 years we know each other as a friens back during ite times and here i am, would like to thank you for loving me for who i am. No matter how hard times you had, with the rumours u endure, frenship problems you had, the family issues that forever can't be solve, you still stuck by me, confide in me and always be there to love me dearly. thank you baby. i cant believe how you manage to cope with my anger, my temper, my strictness, my lameness everything.. from good to worst, u name it, everything you have seen within me but yet, u are still here by my side. THANK YOU!

And yar, to those of my friends, you know who you are. In relationship, don't try to rush into relationship or force someone into it. I know how it feels like when someone you love soo much, play hard to get or give a reason she's not ready. Co'mon.. i been in that situation and you guys know it. Just go with the flow, be urself, be true to who you are and always draw a line between u and the opposite partner. dont be too low and bow to every needs she wants or commands she gave. Have a backbone and be a lil firm. Girls nowdays are smart and needs guy who had a goal in life, someone whom they could be secure and trust with and also a stable life. but whatever girls you guys are tackling, respect and take good care of them. Worst scenario would be, do not interfere in someone's relationship which is still ongoing. You could be there to listern to her problems but don be a person who keeping a motive behind his doings. Be true aite. Don't chase someone who is attached or invloved being a third party. it's a very painful thing thats for sure.

Enough of my boring speech and i guess it's time for me to continue the sleep i been waiting for... Have a nice dream y'all

Jalan Raya 2009 ~WARNING~ (Heavy-Post) [part 1]

2009-10-02T16:39:00.020+08:00

Dear Diary...

Date:28 Sept 09 (Monday)

No matter how old you are, there's always this feeling inside of each individu, would like to celebrate Hari Raya as happy as can be right. Same goes to me. Ever since dad passed away 5 years ago, everything change including the celebration of any festive season. As per normal this year, first day raya was bored like hell, sitting at home the whole day. Second day was a killer, doing nothing much and the third was like a dead human, rotting at home. How i envy LB, busy visiting from one house to another for few days non-stop.

So, finally the day to celebrate came when Hical finally organise the event of Jalan Raya. 28 Sep 2009 (monday). Must remember that date... But sadly, Hafitz could not make it due to some issue with his overslept thingy and Didi was because of his work schedule. Both Wan Afro and Yus was in camp but the rest is available. The story of the day goes like this.... --->

They travel all the way from East and came down to the West for the first house.Erm, well, who else stay in the West besides me!

They walk and walk under the hot sun enjoying themselves....

Finally, reached under my block but they have to wait for me to reached home from my friend's mum funeral.

Meanwhile, to share the sibling loves they had... The Jeffries!

Was around 3.30pm when they finally step into my house.

Nothing much... cause i was busy bathing and dressing up myself for the day. ( nicest group photo)

Off to my bus-stop, waiting for the damn slow bus, towards interchange. (Wheather check-Very hot sunny day)

In the train with Alan towards Woodland, LB's house

SNAP-SNAP-SNAP

Nice picture you took, Hical.

Walk all the from the Interchange to LB house, under the hot sun! I don't know whose idea

(Time Checked: 5pm++)

Once we reached, stomach starts to make noise and GURP! Attack the fridge for water, attack the kitchen for food!! Parent not at home so all of us make ourself at home lor

Saddam with his Left and Right man

Mr Saddam high on weeds. ( Steamy Eyes 1:Nabil)

We ate, we drink, we chill, we joke and laugh, we took pictures here and there but 1 thing i will never ever let LB off, she still have not ask forgiveness from me! haha... nice setting for her to do it... the video i shall upload soon! Sorry baby..hehe

Say CHEESE!!!

No more walking back to the interchange!! So here we are,waiting the bloody bus

Alan posing at the Woodland bus interchange

NICE!!! We took 168 down to Bedok, change bus and off to iqah's house. ( One of Hical, Ilham, Ali's friend)

(Steamy Eyes 2:Syafiq)

Ilham getting closer and closer..catch u ar!

(Steamy Eyes 3:Ilham) Some of us here are trying to figure out Nabil's shesha safety box!! Next stop is, Ilham, aka *Pi-um's house(*means brother in thailand language) Guess what! Ilham's mother is from Thailand!! Cool or what!!

Since Ilham's mum was from Thailand, she has kindly cook us Tom Yam!! Even though Ilham said that his mum has reduced the spice from the dishes, the Tom Yam still taste incredible hot!!! I manage to have just A SIP of the soup and it was damn spicy ok!! but seriously damn delicious!!!

Time to take our leave (Time-Checked: 9pm ++) Next house, Hical's!!

What would be the best thing to do next after having a nice spicy,hot Tom Yum Soup meal?? It's time to let some steam off your system!

It's nearly 10pm plus but yet the group was full of energy and laughter. Not to forget the food at Hical's crib. Fried chicken, Fries, Fried Mee with soft drinks. HALEMAK!!! My type of food sia.. and Hical's bibik was super freindly and nice. Stand in the kitchen to chit chat with his bibik awhile and introduce LB to her as bibik wants to see whose my 'ehem ehem'. I like that bibik! very friendly..

Formal

Informal

Next was to Izam's house. Not a single picture was taken there. I'm not too sure why but everyone seems to be full after a long meal at Ilham and Hical's cribs. So basically, everyone just sat their butt on the chair without moving. Like a snake with a big belly.

Here we are, at Syafiq's Crib and look, who is on the royal chair?? MR SADDAM!

Look at Hical... Like 1 big baby giant!

and he's at it again but now as a Singapore Grid Boy! In the middle of the road divider.. It's a must to see the video of him doing his stunt. hehe... So, now, it was around 11pm plus and we are heading to Faizoul's Cribs.

Same goes what happen at Izam's place. Everyone just too tired, too hot and sweaty and too full no move about or eat. Seriously, when to think back the fried noodles his mum have cookedfor us, all was gone down to the rubbish. One whole full bucket of it!! Wasted right?haiz...

but atleast got to take this photo of Izam and Mimi. Alahai...Comel nya!! (hical, your fart stinks like hell ok inside the lift!!! the few of us was swearing like hell. Imagine this. We took a lift to 9th floor but it was only at second floor and hical already letting go his powerful gas!! OMG!)

Date: 29 Sep 09 (Tuesday)

Next, last house of the day and it was at Angah's Crib but look at the time. It was already nearly 1am and some of us have already leave home. Nabil leave after Syafiq's house. He has a class chalet to attend. Alan and his lil brother left together with Nabil due to their parent making noise.

Everyone seems tired and sleepy by this time. Soon enough, we make our move. As for me and LB who already had no bus or train to go home, decided to over-night with Angah and Faizoul under Eddy's block till 6am.By that time, me and LB took a cab, send her back home first and off i went back home. It was 7.15am when i reached home. Quickly shower, pray and off to sleep.

zzzzzzZZZZzzzZZZzzzz

to be continue

After A Very Long Exhausted Week...

2009-10-01T19:00:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

It's been awhile this blog of mine has not been updated all thanx to my nephew. He spilled his bottle of milk on my laptop while i was watching some shows and BOOM! There's goes my laptop.. went to Sony shop, intention to get it fix but it would cost around $1k, ,due to the motherboard and all the internal circuit have been short-circuited. Last resort, sold my lappy to cash convertor and manage to get 50bucks. Better than nothing right. Haiz.. no internet excess is like so bored sia at home. Luckily, my lil sis lappy is here and i could only use it if she's not schooling. Enough of the laptop thingy aite. It pains my heart..

So, here i am, resting at home the whole day, body ache all over, feeling restless as usual, tired and exhausted from a long long week. There's outing that need to be attend, replacement that must be completed, house chores that need to finish and times need to be spend for my friends, family and of course, my LB.

To summarize it down, it was a roller coaster ride for me recently.. there's plenty of fun times and there's also some moments which could be improved on. Overall, 2 tumbs up. To hical, now you know how tough to organize an outing right? you need to find a way to compromise everyone's schedule and free time they had but, you did a great job brotha. Next outing, tomorrow, Part 2 of jalan raya.

Rest well my friends and do take care of ur diet. doesn't mean no more fasting, all foods, junks or even coloured drinks, you could all stuff in ur body. don't be like me...im gaining weight damn fast like hell. Im currently weight 94kg!!? From maintaning 87kg during fasting month but now shot up!! haiz... what to do when you are happy you eat lor...hehe. Even LB is gaining too..how cute. lurve ya'all

G.R.T recruitment..

2009-09-14T02:01:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary...

Alright, here i am, downloading songs from WALI BAND and im like going bonkers over all of their songs ok.. i seriously had no idea of this group till one of my G.R.T frens intro this band and i must say that most of their songs is very much meaningful songs with absolute well done lyrics!

Previous Saturday went out for a gathering with G.R.T to celebrate their anniversary and also to get to know some of the senior team-mates. Oh well, im still a very small fries mah..got to be humble man. Very happy LB manage to come together (muackz) as well so yar lor.. first break-fast at some al-lameen at kembangan, than off to meet the rest at ECP than finaly off to geylang.

OHH weLLL!! must remember our slogan-MASK! mengalah adalah satu kemenangan!!

Had a great day la..it was almost 3am when the time i send LB home..haiz.penat man! mean time, tc and be happy earth people!!

Clueless, Speechless,angry but funny..

2009-09-11T01:03:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary...

Tired sia.. Morning shift today. after that waited for LB to finish her AM work to and off we go to tampines to meet the boys. Promise them to play soccer and also seems that some of them miss LB so ya lor. So now, just reached home and i'm super duper tired.

Last few days seems hectic and busy too with my brother, hafitz, admitted to hospital. So clever la him..first day got bike, accident already.wah liao!! when Syafiq told me the news, i cant believe it sia.. my brain suddenly had the thought that while ridding his bike, he may sleep on his bike and that's how he kena bang! hehe...but luckily no la eh.hehe..sori burn.. So, tuesday went down with LB to pay him a visit from 4 til 9.30. with amalina with us too. Than in the evening, Budak2 Eunos came down and finally Batin and Tham came. aduh! Hot la si hafitz nie.Admitted je, satu dunia turun la sey..cool!

Than yesterday wednesday, came down again to visit him with nabil.LB was working PM shift. The same routine as Tuesday..Later in evening, some of the Tamp Boys came..Than Niza..Than titi.. aduh! kecoh la beb...May u recover soon bro..

My Little Nephew...

2009-09-06T16:03:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary...

So yar.. yesterday after meet up with LB, went back home and rest but this nephew of mine is soo duper hyper! he dance here and there, jump all around and keep jumping on my back. My lil sister is going to Hong Kong in about 12more hours.. for 1 week she will be gone for her education trip for her school and yar, im sure im gonna miss her like mad.. she's the only family member that i'm very close with.. without her, no more jokes and laugher here at home. But i'm sure she wil miss me too and our nephew. Takut rindu ANIQ(my nephew), lil sis took out her camera and video it down my nephew and me, teasing each other.

so finally, slept after sahur. can't really get to sleep because LB is on night shift. How to sleep peacefully when ur love is out there working rite.. So yar, finished watching this Japan show (Goukesen part 1) and also finally finished watching NARUTO!! All the 220 episode finish at last.. next is NARUTO SHIPPUDEN! Hafitz, i'm catching up on u bro..

A Quick Random Post

2009-09-05T16:37:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Is there something wrong with me lately? I don't know but i'm very sure LB agrees with me. Both of us too! The feeling is just seriously different. Unique. can't be explain and can't be decribe. Ever since the fishing time with LB on Wednesday, the feeling of love, is like an aura covering me. I feel like being loved soo much! i feel like been cherished soo much! visa versa...

HAIYA!! i don't know la how to say but this feeling is seriously different. High on sky...

So, right now,just finished clean up my room, sweep and mop the house, wash and hang clothes, iron my uniform and wash the toilet and i must say i'm dead thirsty right now.. ENDURE! Now, gonna bath to meet up with LB at her home. Poor thing la she break-fast alone. Plan gonna buy her a BIG-WHOLE-BBQ-CHICKEN.To be shared ok..hehe. ok than here only la..zoom!!

Jikalau Langit boleh berbicara,

Ia akan memberitahu mu betapa luas cinta ku utk mu.

Jikalau Gunung boleh berkata-kata,

Ia akan menunjuk mu betapa tinggi ku menghormati mu.

Jikalau Bulan dapat melihat,

Ia akan menyinarkan wajah rindu ku padamu setiap mlm.

DAN jikalau Laut dapat dibelah,

Ia akan menunjuk mu betapa dlm ku sayangi mu.

KU CINTA SAMA KAMU, Cinta.

--Heavy Post-- (Bugis + Fishing with LB) (Drama of Amy & Nisa)

2009-09-03T23:19:00.018+08:00

Dear Diary...

Ok.. what a hectic days i been having lately and it barely sunday but i already feel the heat of energy worn out. Right now, i just can't go to sleep..my body is too tired.. now is still thursday rite? gosh! i get all the date mix up. So basically,me and LB went to Bedok Jetty on Wednesday night for fishing la what else right. She slept the whole nite and leave me alone sia.. emo-shit la what else!! Fish Fish Fish till thursday morning.. around 1pm we left East Coast and off we went home.. I can't wait to go for work tomorrow... i miss my ward and stuff... and im afternoon!! yahoo!

PSST!!! You notty little itchy monkey u, LB.. menggigil bila dikenangkan!

Now, we shall rewind the time further back a little bit ok. hmm...Teleport to...TUESDAY! Gosh! i seriously had no idea that on Tuesday is an off day for us student..teacher day?? OMG!! how i wish i was still young man.hehe.. (da tua tak sedar diri eh) So, since off day, some planning was done on that day lor.. LB was on the morning shift, so as usual lor, fetch her from work than off we go dating!! Next stop, watching FINAL DESTINATION 3D at Iluma-Bugis.

BUT WAIT!!!

There's some incident happen before me and LB took the bus from the bus stop apposite the Cantoment Police HQ. From far, i already notice a girl name, Nisa, sitting at the bus stop. which nisa?? erm, faham2 la yer. From far i already saw her la sey but i just ignore la cause i was walking towards the bus stop to check what bus should we take. At that moment, LB was busy reading newspaper. So ok la.. act cool.. but than, she suddenly stand and was like panicking sia.. as if she saw a ghost in-front of her.. i thought what la sey but than she suddenly hide behind this advertisement board la sey!! It puzzle me la sey..

Nvm about that la.. so i pretend nothing happen la. LB was like in her own world. too slow to catch the 'show'. than we purposely stand beside the board and check the map of what bus is available la. From there, obviously can see the reflection right thru the glass panel... and what did i notice from there??!! Suhaimi was also there hiding la sey!! when they saw us standing there they quickly sat down at the bus stop facing other side. OMG!! mcm budak2 la sey... had enough of their childishness, me and LB went to the bus stop 1 before that bus stop. Just to avoid to see their wonderful act...GOSH!!!

I was like piss-off la to think about it. Well, if me or LB have did something wrong, just say so la. just be frank.. i can take it. but if not, why behave like that?? is there something you guys did wrong towards us, behind our back?? well, we don't wanna know and we don't care.. as long as our conscious is clear.. why bother about all this drama mama..hmph!

she rockx my world!! wohu!

okok...back to the story.

So yar, once we get our 8.15pm ticket, off we went to bugis street to walk2 la. than firdaus suddenly msg me, saying he saw us.. irritating right... u saw us, why can't you tegur right.. rather than msging me.. something fishy2 la sey.. maybe he's with the 2 drama mama maybe. don't bother don't bother. and also by that time, LB lost her phone!! OMG! i lost my brain sia..! up goes my BP!! haiz.. go to M1 shop, get a new sim card. phone? she borrowed her mum spare phone. and now, leaving a big task to explain to my elder sis how the phone went missing..cause LB phone is my elder sis phone but now, she lost it. so how?? anyone can feel how burning i am towards her???

Luckily soon after that, meet up with my beloved Tamp Boys. Let go my steam of anger at them..COMPLAINT to them like duh!! well, u guys ask why my face sour right, so thats the reason lor...

Off to Superman Shop...

Than off we find a spot to break-fast
continuing of letting out steam of anger
Ordering food... and we wait... picture time! click-click-click!
new female member to the club....
Introducing...

Irfan the Baby face

Tall and Hunky, Alan

Fatimah aka Ayu

Adorable Sazli

Eddy Apek

Abg Berg, Angah

The Gentle Giant, Hical

Erm, not sure her name but she's 16!! unbelievable!

Last but not least, My Sexy LB!

Post-dinner syndrome

After the dinner, both me and LB bid farewell to them and off we go for our show.. comments on the show, hmmm. 60% je i rate.. too much of graphic and the way they died is all look like a fake death.. not as real compare to all the previous FD. and also the show is only 1hr 10mins.. ~lame~

but at the end of the day, LB discovered something that she's quite surprise with. She finally make a new female friends, whom she's comfortable with.. and yar. i agree with hical. the 3 of them do look like sisters from different parent.hehe

and to you ANGAH, both of u look soo good together bro! 2 tumbs-up! apa lagi, tackle la beb!! hahax.. i caught you red-handed aite..hehe.. and yar! u monkey!! how dare u slip the money into my back pocket!!! grrrr.

~Till than, tc my brothers and sisters~

It's finally 90kg!!

2009-09-01T01:26:00.009+08:00

Dear Diary...

Ok... as today where i had a briefing for my last week of CP2.1, all of us we gathered at ward46 tutorial room. So we chit chat with Mdm Tan PoH Geok, creating havoc all over the place la as usual. One thing I enjoy this current group is that, 3/4 of them are fun loving people to work with. Work is work..joke is joke. never ever take in to heart.

So, as i was saying, after the meeting, i decided to weight myself. AS USUAL LA! It's a daily routine for myself everyday in my ward. SURPRISE!! It's 90kg!! i tot the machine was spoiled or smth la..being paranoid, go to sister room to borrow another set of weight machine. Crack up some story la to sister that the other machine spoil. Still 90kg!! HALEMAK!!

Imagine la sey...i gain 30kg ever since my operation and sum up my weight was 110kg before my CP start!! Confused on why i'm soo happy?? It's a promise to myself if i were to pass to make it to 90kg, time to get hardcore and get my idol body!! (picture above) I DON'T CARE!!! i want!! Not to show off whatsoever!!! just to gain back my self-confidence and to look good for my LB.. reality check aite...she's hot ok!! but i'm like...what the heck. It's more like beauty and the beast sak.. and also there's alot of jeans and shirt of mine last time that i have not even wear it...y?? because i'm fat la gundu!!! buy buy buy but weight continue to add on..so how??So, let's get ready to rumble!!

So i guess, all the saving money to pay all my debt by not eating at work, the midnight trainning, a healthy meal, adequate rest, minimise the ciggarettes and being happy, really does help me alot in reducing my weight after all. and i don't think that fasting month plays a big part of my weight loss.. i do still eat alot ok after the break-fast..it's a matter of how hard u hit the bell after that..hmmm.. whatever it is, now, not a single human or thing in this world can stop me from what i want now!! a healthy body!! argh!!! paranoid!!!

k la..now wanna get some beauty sleep...damn tired sia.. my hands is like killing me.. i miss my LB munccyy muchh!!

Breaking-Fast @ Geylang with Brothers

2009-08-30T15:01:00.008+08:00

Dear Diary....

HahaX! Yesterday was a blast man... LB have been planning it for quite some time, and that is to treat the Tamp boys. Since it's the fasting month, she decided to treat the whole lot of us to break-fast together as 1! Venue was altered as financially was shaky so down we went to Teh Tarik @ Geylang!
Start the day as me and LB went down to the stall around 3pm, just to reserve a place for us. Harap kan si anak Harun tu, hpmh!!! So after booking, both of us jln2 at Tanjung Katung Complex. End up LB was hooked to one of the baju kurung for couple and i must admit it was damn nice and cute. So yar, she bought it lor.. it's our first couple baju kurung together sey... it's like, i seriously can't wait to celebrate rayer sey!! Hope the Tamp Boys do organise rayer-ing.

The time is still early as we promise the BOYS to meet up at 5.30 so, off we went to Grandlink, KARAOKE!! Bulan-bulan puase karaoke eh..hehe. Cool la sey! first time sey LB stand to sing and dance. Masya-allah!! Than off we went to meet the boys at the Haig Rd.

We break our fast there, than went to Darul Alqam for our prayers, than we walk2 the whole Geylang, take pictures here and there, shouting like no-one business, checking up chickys, meeting friends and relatives and more!! Haiz... if only we had a proper plan on what to do next after next.. Sadly, we parted our way at Hafitz house's carpark...

Next plan, HARI RAYA!!!! Hical and company, plan jln rayer dok!!! asyik aku je...Possible, 2nd week of Raya on saturday ok??? for the nurses in my class, up to you all plan for the Raya ok...cause it's hard to plan now as everyone busy with work and some will "PAITAU".

Making a relationship is like sailling a boat

When the breeze is cold and windy,

all it seems is arguement and fights.

But when the sun is shinning high up,

everything looks fine and blessfull.

Every now and than,

the boat will be rocky when u hit an ice-berg

but everything will be ok once it beeing fix properly.

One thing I'm very sure..

and that is,

there's no other luxury boat than can replace a boat like mine!

even though this boat of mine is just only a sampan,

but the strong foundation it has,

is strong enough to go against the high tide.

It can't be replace! It can't be substitute!

I LOVE YOU, LB!

More pictures could be find @ my multiply( click the icon on the right of this blog)

Finally, All is Done!!

2009-08-22T17:14:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary...

Wokay! Finally!! All is finished! Full-Stop!! a breathe of relief...~phew~

Nah, got nothing to do with a relationship aite.. don't think negative. My love is still going strong aite it just that sometimes you hit a big rock and the ship tends to be a lil rocky. that's all. What i mean by. "im done" is that, i have finish cleaning up my room as for usual since it's weekend. Living room, dining room, kitchen all have been sweep and mop as well. Laundry have been done and toilet have been clean and now im hungry thirsty and all... GRRR!!! patience..

Haiz.. this is me. when i'm down like this, i just keep my mouth seal the whole day and just keep myself occupied in order not to dwell on my anger soo much or the situation i had. I believe everything happen for a reason. Never blame anyone.. it's just life.. we live our life where it was already written by GOD. Only now, i express all my silence word thru here.. i don't feel like talking to anyone, sms to anyone or even sit and watch TV. I just need something now to burn down the anger i had..

Im still figuring what to do next...hmm. most probably, an hour before break fast, i think it's best for me to hit the dumbell..what do u think DD? ala, ignore the chest pain la... rather die than being this mad. it comes to the same thing...hmm.. so, dumbell?? alrite!!! that's the plan than...

Well, before i sign off, i wanna share 1 incident happen just now. to me it's kinda funny la. i was cleaning up the toilet. full of passion beb. scrub there scrub here..hug the toilet bowl here and there as to scrub them when suddenly i began to talk to myself. when to think of it, it sounds like a poetry.. funny rite?? haiz... doing work with hand but mind wondering off...

what is love?

people say it's a feeling that touch the heart

and some say it's just another disease send form hell

but ironicly, it gave us happy time and laughter,

even though how depressing it is..

so what is exactly love?

is it a crime

or is it a rhyme?

but i guess, it just a waste of time!

Nevermind than... im just having PMS i guess... or just my tummy grumbles.. hungry man is a angry man but i know, 'u' knew the reason why. what's the use of apologising when u do the mistake over and over again. but..hmm...atleast u apologise eh...haiya. idk la. u claim to forget the password to ur blog but it seems there suddenly a post, posted eh. its like magic. once again idk la eh. u may still remember whatever password u had but pretend infront of me not to remember anything. only god knows what you were doing. piss-off!

First Day Of a Holy Month...

2009-08-22T05:38:00.007+08:00

Dear Diary...

Kepada semua umat-islam yang ku sayangi, selamat berpuasa, penuh kan la ibadah sepanjang bulan yg mulia ini dan berbanyak la bersabar dan bersolat. Suci kan la diri dan lengkapkan puasa segenap sebulan ini. Insya-allah.

------------------------------------------------------------------Amin-------------------------------------------------------------

Well, since it's beginning of ramadhan month, i decided to give BL a surprise visit at her home around 10pm, since she confess me in the phone that she miss soo much. So yar, there i am, appear in front of her house. Later, we decided to went for a mid-night show at woodland, watching GI.JOE. Hmm...no komen la regarding the show. It never 'wow' me as i expected.

Later, we sat at coffee shop nearby, to chill over a cup of coffee and off we went. I had nothing much to say as deep down i was a lil mad on what happen after that. The sacrifies i made to come, the back pain i endure, the chest pain that troubles me.. putting aside all that as so u miss me soo much. end up, a turning off. Well, i don't usually regret on something easily but now, i admit i regret coming over, spending time with u just now..

I admit, the pain and anger is still within but never i will scold or watsoever towards you. i dont wanna cut my life shorter with my BP shotting further high. what i like to say is, thanx.

One Tiny Rain-Drops Does Helps..

2009-07-22T22:04:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary...

Life never stop making our life difficult.. Or is it due to karma.. the more bad things you done in the past, in nearing future, you will pay for the sins. I'm no believer in all this superstition thingy but as the age grows older, you tend to take in more experience and be more wiser.

Take this droplets of water from the sky..(rain). To ordinary people, it's just an ordinary rain that drops from the sky but to me, i had a dream. A strange dream. This droplets symbolise a new meaning in life. Example, what will happen to the plantation around us if there's no rain? What will happen to the reservoir if there's no rain?

Call me childish but thanx to the wheather today, it does makes me ponder on certain issue i had right now. It's like the droplets falls on me, cleanse my sins away, and gave me brains to think. Thank God.. I really do.

Yesterday, mum receive a lawyer letter that was send behalf from SGH. Listed below was outstanding bills of, $13 540. Haiz.. It was the amount of the Sponsorship Bond thingy, that was terminated from me due to the stupid fight. Mum tried to seal the letter from me, but in the middle of night, i was woken up to the toilet, where i saw that letter, sticking out from her back. Too bad, i read it.

Remember my Operation on my ankle?? that too have not been paid.. $2000+. not sure the exact amount but im sure it was not paid yet.. So, anyone thinks they having a bad life they had? Try comparing to mine ok. I still have not included the amount of money i owe from friends, Hp Bills, Medical Bills etc.

Seriously, all this is enough to bring my morale down once again from me going for my attachment but luckily, LB was there to lecture me this early morning. Her love and patience she showed me, was enough for me to think thru while im walking under the rain, towards home. She's my pillar of strength and thanx God one more time, i decided to 'clean myself', seek forgiveness from him just now, and asking for some correct path in life. What i wish for now is, i hope this would carry on forever in my life as age is getting up on me.

Haiz... am i better than myself?? i leave that to God to answer.. LB, thanx dear.. hearts u soo much...terubat sikit rindu ini...tapi tetap rindu yer...hehe

No comment on paitau'ers but still enjoy...

2009-07-21T19:11:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Ta-DA!!! isn't she's hot??!! My goodness.. the moment i took this picture of hers, i was like, damn!! oh well, she's mine btw..hehe..

Basically right now, i'm busy with syafiq's psy project.. help him a lil bit, contribute some of my ideas into his project and besides that, im soo tired right now.. i was morning shift just now, came back tried to sleep but i cant because i miss LB soo much!! GRR!!! i kept complaining to her how i miss her dearly... but what to do, cobaan!

im dead sure she's bz watching her japanese and koreans shows online...hmph!! but never mind. she's on her AL for 2weeks... pity her la. she's kinda bored. wanna go out dont have money. better she stay home like this..tenteram sikit jiwa aku.

Baby, if u reading this, just wanna say, I MISS YA!!!!

Last saturday was supposely to had this nursing gathering la kan. plan punya plan, semangat punya semangat, end up, dapat bubbles.. frens who yer yer plan together with me, also bubbles. not even a single msg to me, atleast have the heart la to inform kan but never! nvm.. humans are like that sometimes right...cannot complaint much... later kena bomb there bomb here.. we just keep within only lor.

btw, that day turn out to be great after all. since paitau'ers, we just had an ordinary outing lor. The Tamp boys were willing to join in to enjoy ourselves..thanx alot guys. whatever happens there, i guess its best if i kept that within us la huh... and hafitz, too bad u never ask the pinky girl's number... and yar hical, aku termimpi budak seluar pink tu bro.!! mati aku kene bunuh ngan bini aku...

Btw my Tamp bros, picture of that day could be seen in my multiply aite...its loaded up already.

Thats all la yer... very the busy now. -cao cincao-

Enjoyment on Saturday!!

2009-07-13T00:54:00.012+08:00

Dear Diary

It seems like, everyday is getting better and better for me. Could see myself more lively and happier than before. Well, all my gratitude should go to LB. She's the one that always there for me. Either in bad times or good times, she's still there for me.. Thanx sweetie.

Basically, LB is having her first night today and after the 3 nights, she's gonna have 1wk plus of AL.. isn't that cool!? but too bad, she complaint that she's bored as i'm away, busy with attachment. hehe... kinda bored la she's not around me now cause im so used of spending time with her 24/7. Take an example yesterday.

Sunday ( 11 July 09)

Basically the day start by going to the gym at Tamp with LB, Hical and Syafiq. Must admit la, ever since hical start to go gym regularly, im kinda motivated la to start back, if not, its so bored doing the routines alone at home. After nearly 2 hrs plus there, we chill, eating maggi under Syafiq's blk and off we went to street soccer. Must admit la the wheather was not kind enough to us.. it's start from drizziling but later, down came a heavy rain... but hell no!!! that doesn't stop us from continuing our soccer man!! it was a perfect, damn best soccer ever i played!! players like, Sazli, Afiq, etc.. were sliding each other like no-one's business... Both keepers, (me and hical) were like Dugongs in between the post..! seriously, exactly like 2 big dugongs sia!! save the ball here and there, swimming in the puddle of water for "F".. sliding on our tummy to save ball etc.. WTH!!! seriously, was one of the days i shall remember always.

Boys Wet and drench

Much later, we end at 10pm , where the court lights were off.. So, we chill, changed clothing, talk2, joke, laugh, fart and even share nightmares... like Sazli said, ATTACK!!! LOL!! times past damn fast as i realise it was 11.30pm... where got bus to go home to Boon Lay after send LB home.. SO... What next?? Chill till next morning lor..

Its soo bored lor even-thought there's about 10 people chilling... it was only around 5am plus, where some of the boys had went home. All begins when Faizul started to take some picture of himself.. Then it leads to taking videos.. LOL!! just have a look at the video below... there's more funny videos la... it was save and upload to my latest multiply at http://qasehlaila.multiply.com/

Jackson 3 !!

Minus Pit-Bull, here comes Nabil-Bull !

HAIZ..! damn funny sia but dammn tired! Okok... that's enough about yesterday. Shall be part of the sweetest memory ever.

Back to attachment... So far, my first week of attachment in the same ward with LB was much of a stress la. I don't know how, when and why or what... some-how there's always gossip-mongers wherever in the world. Even in the ward?! it was my first day but yet, staff and ENs were looking at me with one kind of face... is it my bald head?? that was what i had in mind first.. So, during break time, i complaint to LB in the Tea-Room la.. And yar, the whole ward was talking about me and LB.. that was what LB was telling me... WTH rite!? we were doing our own work sia and some more we are not on the the same side of the ward.. its like from one end to the other sia...! grr!!! there must b a "snake" within the ward that told some 'mami jarum' about me and LB status... grrr!!! if i were to know who, gonna skin that person man... cant just don't know how to keep a low profile is it... KPO! but besides that, my SGH Group 2 now, is soo much interesting... fun bunce of student la... can't wait for my PM shift later.. wohu!!!

- Toodles-

I'm Back and Raring to Go!

2009-07-05T03:14:00.006+08:00

Dear Diary

Here I am, finally back updating my blog after for soo long. Can't be help, was too busy with family issues, recovering from my OP, lap-top was down and much much more.. But most of my time were tremendously spending time with this particular girl below...

who else..my LB ( Layla Baby ). There's up and down, as usuall but the most exciting part was, we both, spend time together with the East-Siders Boys!! Yupz! Its hical and gang.. Use to be LB's groups of frens too.. Happening beb!! Chill out with them till wee hours in the morning... LB just can't get enough of them..she adore them like hell... just imagine this..she spend around 200bucks, treating the whole bunch of them to karaoke and dinner at Simpang Bedok. Next treat was around the fasting month where i need to help her to raise a total of 400 bucks to treat them again at this particular food-place at town.

Abg Botak-Jones

Abg Yu-Yu
Missy Coffee Shop

Izam with LB

Mr Sexy,Shafiq

Above picture was taken recently around 2am at Tampines "Teh Tarik" Coffee Shop. Shafiq and Eddy pic was not taken... Had a lot of fun seriously and LB was from her afternoon shift and the next day was her morning shift. Never sleep sia member!! after lepak, straight go to work again... Crazy rite?haiz...

Attachment is around the corner..few more hours and TA-DAA!! Back wearing that school uniform again..but never mind.. my first 4 weeks will be in the same ward as LB!! WOHU!! Looking forward bebeh!! And my CP lecturer was my previous CA, Mdm Tan Poh Geok..cool kepe..haha... Ya allah, moga2 dapat la aku habis kan course nursing aku ni..amin!!

Last but not least, been missing these 2 frens of mine like hell...one is my closest brother (ahmad) and the other one was one of my closest sista (faizana)..haiz... just hope you guys are well and take care of urself aite...

Fifi, bob, nana

Ahmad Rosyid
Hiaz...Till than, take care and shall update soon.Toodles

Movie Of The Year (Part 1)

2009-06-12T15:48:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary...

Yupz, I'm back now...having troubles here and there and kinda have a lil time on myself to reflect back what and how goes wrong.. Mean-time, busy updating FB, blogs, multiply, friendster etc...

So yar, there's some great movies is coming out and i can't wait to grap that tickets for me and BL (Baby Layla) to watch it first class... waiting.. ENJOY!

shopping shopping ZAB

2009-05-20T00:31:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary...

Basically, had a long day today with bro ZAB. was lazing around at home where zab msg me, asking me out last minute..it was around 3pm and i was not even bath la..masam kepe. So, he would be reaching in 50mins time from tampiness. Apa lagi, lincah2 shave my head, bath and quickly get done lor..

First, accompany him to his school at Temasek Poly for him to punch his card.. member having third year attachment la katakan.. so while waiting him at the school canteen, i noticed that it was a graduation day for the students but not sure for what courses la.. See them in that long, graduation 'coat', was like, WOW..making me jealous sia.. how i wish i have finish up my poly studies last time but nvm...

So, while he was away for a moment, decided to call LB up.. miss her voice sey.. hahax! first time she sang me a song in the phone kepe..alahai...longgar lutut ni...sedap plak tu her voice... but belom mandi..hmph! but still sweet kan... and yar, we were joking around on how would it turn out to be if i were to be lembut or gay bastard...hehe! LOL sia member!! gonna kill u LB..

We hung up the moment zab came back cause she needs to prepare herself for her last nite duty..took the car and zoom to raffles city... go to thois adidas shop where its having moving out sales but nothing interest him..

Than walk to marina square, take a fast look into Top-Shop, Zara, Domanchi and more la...all a quick stop but zab was like interested in this blazzer which is nice for him..and yar, not forgetting Puma shop!!! cool kepe...i had plan to buy LB something for her..very nice bebeh!!

Than zoom to Town... went to far east first, to look at two shoes shop...but stil he's not impress and than off we went to wisma, NIKE boutique.. i swear i never enter that place before as it was new for me..i must go town with LB this thursday!! there, he bought himself this nike jacket..make me jealous beb!! sabar je zab eh....

Than finally, zoom off back to my home.... thanx zab for the ride aite.. about the Fitness trainning, sure no problem bro... i will get u back on track...let me heal my leg first and than surrender ur soul to me!!!

LB-im very sorry u cant manage to follow baby..its soo very awkward u not around....NVM! u will had a surprise later in the morning..wohu!!!

Family..Friends..Bitch..LB...

2009-05-19T00:35:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary....

It's been ages for me to update this blog of mine.. Nothing specific just that many things happen around me, with me on rehab myself, family issue, friends issue and more la.. I seriously don't know where to begin but please pardon me for the heavy content below... it will be filled with full of emotions and sort of a place to let me out...

~Family~

2 weeks plus now ever since me and mother are not on talking terms. We never see each other eye to eye, face to face and even the gesture is totally different now. She could blame me for a fault i done but atleast, i don't find a rationale on what she had done. It's true when im snap, my words are very harsh even though bad words never included in. To me, it's just me.. That's how i manage my anger, that's how i calm myself down and that's how i want it to be, rather than me use force everytime rite... if that's were to be happen, situation will turn more ugly and also, till when im gonna change my attitude. My words may be harsh to u, mother... but u know, i don't really mean it rite. It's too coinfidentially to be stated here what actually happens.. as long as Baby knows it, im fine with it.. im here to confide in myself and venge my tots here.

Are you happy if i were to confide the situation with my friends on what happen to us, confide in them how angry i am towards u?? same goes to you mother... i dont mind u turn to elder sis to venge ur anger abt me... and i know i been a bad son ever since im young.. ur tears is always flowing due to me..me and my attitude.. no matter how much i change, there's always something...that lil soemthing that im lacking. mother, don't forget im human after all. i was ready to seek forgiveness from you the very next day when elder sis talk sense to me but look what have you done.. u bring aunt and her son in this story.. there goes another long lecture against me... and u never know, they had a wrong impression on me. what u said to them maybe true but they may interprite it wrongly... i can't blame them as they have their point of views too...

The thing now is, why must there always out sider came in to lecture me??? u are not there to listern how brother in law words were to me about the SGH bond thingy.. u were not there to listern Abg yan's comment abt the fight i had in school... My points is, why wreck up the past?? Mother, u want to wreak up the past, dont blame me for being who i am in the past and im sure late father hate it... don't force me... here i am trying my best to be the best for my future and the best for our family as im the only son here... my responsibility is greater than anyone... i noted abt that... but please, please understand the anger i had within me... its about how other people came in, lecture me abt something in the past with them not knowing the real situation... dat peoples may get the wrong idea...don't u get it mother!!?

Haiz.. the fact is.. I miss the good times we had as a family. where im able to make fun of you and lil sis... playfully scold u for nothing as a joke and u laugh abt it... simply put it, i miss u. i'm sorry... but to seek forgiveness from you, i dont know when cause im still hurt and angry inside.same goes to you.. mother and son..same blood-line and character.. from where did i came from??? its from you.. the pain u had to endure for 10mths carrying me, i know i should'nt treat u like this but i just cant help it... i just leave it to time to heal and see what will happen next. Maybe im being to EGO and paranoid but nvm...Whatever it is mother, Im sorry.... I lurve u...

~Friends~

Now, back to basic.. what are friends and how to differenciate what type of friends are really there for you... After soo many years of gaining a friends, losing a friends, i seriously had enough of it.. yes, not all are the same. But, it always happen like this. When u are happy, all of them came, jumping joy for you but when u are down with problems virus, all of them will stay a distance away from you.. Yes, its true had a few friends whom is a superb frens but are they suited for you to share your problems and confide in them?? i had enough, going around, seeking help from all my friends but in the end, not a single one that manage to help me with. End up, with my witts down to level zero, i try to turn to someone whom rarely knows me and my background... and how i meet this person is tru one of my classmates. Lucky for me, he's the same age as me and understand what im been going thru... ironicly, we share the same zodiac.. well i guess, age does too play a part in getting someone to really understand the real you and cound be trusted with.. That person is known as ZAB..we hardly know each other but one thing for sure, he always there for me and always ensure that he had my back when i need help. To me, its rare for me to seek help cause everytime Baby is there to help me but as for now, she unable to due to certain things...its beyond her control and this got nothing with my mother issue. Well to Bro Zab, thanx aite...im really really owe u a big time... like u say, today may be my day, next time, who noes will be your day in need to help. i believe in that...thanx bro...peace!

To my friends out there, thanx for everything... every single memories... it's really time for me to MIA... this blog will be shutting down soon as i would be moving to live journal... My Hp number will be permanently change.. like i say before, only TIME will tells...

~Heartless Human - Mazlin Bte Ma'il~

Im surprise you had the guts to came to my doorstep and leave a bag, full of my nursing notes 1.1 to 2.2... hey, thanx for the notes back aite..it does helps me when im enterting to POLY. but, the tot of u came here, leave it just like that, really ticks me off! Why don't u put my crumple sling back there too?? y don't u put whatever my stuff, cards all that, put in a bag, and gave back to me??? kan lagi bagus kan mcm tu... nak campak2 tgh2 depan rumah orang, than quickly quietly ran off like an idiot for what sey...kecut?? why nak takut ? does smth wrong?? huh! don wanna curse u la eh...pointless...

~Loving Baby~

LB, thanx alot for always being there for me... Only u the only one knows what happen and i would it to be like that... just wanna remind you... whatever i do, whatever i sacrifies, is all for you... u are someone special who can't be replace.. Im gonna make you the best person, for you to have everything the best you wanted and to be the very best person for you cause all this while before we are together, you never ever fell that 'complete feeling' in lyfe before so right now, i would be doing all that for u.. u are in my list of someone whom i had a responsibility to take care of, along with my family members... I heart u soo much LB...

To HELL with PiGs..!

2009-05-01T00:00:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...

First of all... 1 minute of silence please for the rememberence of our late Mr Raj. A wonderful lecturer... Always keen to share his knowledge... Always ready to groom the next generation of nurses... and dedicate humble person in reality... REST IN PEACE, MR RAJ

Ok, now it's time to curse and swear!!

Basically today, when for my first rehab with mother and initially plan Baby would meet us up at SGH itself as she's off today but what the heck, she overslept.. Naik angin sekejap.. Once arrive at SGH, i tell you eh, it's like WTF!!! This swine-flu really does bring a nuisance for health-worker and citizens of whole world..! Chaotic beb... Taking parameters here and there, mask on, PPE on.. walaaau!

Physio had a rocky start as we were given a warning as we are an hour late.. but mother was not satisfied the way the physioterapist convey it la.. learn a few exercise there and it's not bad la the pain cause been doing my own exercise at home all this while but surprisely, she said that i was on weight-barrier, meaning, no weights or pressure were to put on my leg leg, but i start doing it last week till now, where i could walk normally but slowly and obviously with crutches la.. hmmm... And yar, saw Janice at cheers later on while waiting cab to go home...oh Man! how cute she is now and how i miss her..hmm...stay strong aite Janice.. you know what i mean...

Now, back with the swine flu..! Damn!!! can we have a rule where all PIGs, were to be slaughtered completely??!!! no pigs anymore in this whole...can can can?? reason?? simple-- Because of pig, indirectly, mad cow disease exist.. Because of pig, SARS started... and now, SWINE FLU?? WTF right... don't believe me, do your research and you know why aite...it's all started from how pigs were been taken care of and breed in a dirty, smelly place.. For muslim out there, ask any of ur religious teacher kisah satu nabi (cant remember who) tentang kapal layar dimana semua binatang ada and where TUHAN mencipta babi dan kenapa... GOSH!! no heart feelings to all my chinese frens who ate pigs, (well i do last time but not now)why cant we stop eating that animal and just imagine how the way there a breed..

GUUSSS---FRAAA---BAAAA!!

Now, let's talk personal stuff aite DD. Baby was at my home later of the day around 4 till 10pm.. Mother was talking about my leg injury and such la.. i was kinda depress about how my leg injury turn out to be la and the comments made by this uncle, whom came by my home, just to see and observe my leg thru traditional method.. To my surprise, after doing his 'stuff', he told us the whole family that someone was behind all this dramatic issue la..Cut short, someone been using black magic on my leg, as to see me not to walk anymore... no matter how hard for me to believe, but mother confirm it as not only the 'uncle' gave that comment, there's a few people did too... mother quietly ask around for help, behind my back, as she don wanna me to worry.. here it is, infront of Baby, she finally reveal who's the person did this to me... Shall not mention who she is la cause i know, she's kept updating herself about me, by reading this blog regularly..

To her...

i know somewhere inside that heart of yours, you still love me dearly.. and u r guilty on what u have done to me... Well, what can i say, get lost u biatch! You may denied of the doings but ur father mother?? what-ever it is, just move on happily, stop looking at the past and stop having this jealousy feelings, seeing me and Baby happy together, where u failed to own one... u had not only one chance, but there's alot of it i gave u..Now, back-off k as im damn happy with Baby..she change me and will continue to do that... she's way better than you... she may have a black past, but tell me, who doesn't had one?? May only GOD gave u or ur family the punishment that you deserve..AMIN

To my lil SUGAR BABY..

I'm sorry dear.. just can't control my steam of anger la...pardon me k for the post.. Lurve u my lil SUGAR BABY... mean while,lets dance aite..shake the bom bom! hehe.. u know i know eh..hehe

Low in Mood...

2009-04-25T16:15:00.008+08:00

Dear Diary...

Hmm... Saturday... Weekend.. So? I still trap in this house, doing nothing.. See the wall, the wall stare at me back.. PATHETIC right??

Well, last thursday went to Clinic H at SGH with mother for my STO and i was like freaking out already before the proceedure.. Badan je besar hati peh kecik.. to my surprise the stiches were damn small la..roughly around 2mm long sia the string.. small or what sey..! Than after that, prcoceed to ward 46 to visit my aunt..

Hehe... was very happy la cause accidently bumbed with Mdm Noorlizah, my cp teacher in 2.2... was soo happy la get to see her again..we chit chat awhile and ade ke patut, she said i put on weight..HMPh! i do la put some, but don't make it soo like drastic la..drama la..hehe. Soon after, Baby came up awhile, JUST to see me..rindu la katakan eh.. hehe.. and also i know what her motive.. cause there are 2.1 student there also and there's someone that she don't like.. SO, its like to keep an eye on me la tu yer..! takut benar...

This few days was kinda down hill for me la.. plan to meet, never meet. Plan to chill, never chill. Plan to go out, KIV. HAiz.. all thanx to her family probs la.. it's just irritating just to hear with my own ears, how her mother scold and brought up her child like that.. well, the difference now is, the culprit is not Baby but her lil sis..halemak!!! berbulu aku dgr si kecik 2 crying to her grandmother...ngada2 nya! its like u did wrong, but yet u cry..wth!! takpe, budak kecik lagi... Both fault la..mother and daughter.. the victim, baby. da kene jadi security kat rumah..peh mendak aku kat sini.!!

Yar, today we suppose to chill and spend time together la at my home but what to do... just sabar je la bob... cobaan! Now, nth to do, just helping her to change her blog skin la... i donno la.. mcm nak angkat weights pon ade eh.. boring ah.. tapi maner leh angkat eh, doctor marah..haiz...buntu!!

AND yar!! Our anniversary some-more sia...7th mth! may not be long ah but to us, is like, wah, so fast 7 mth meh??? mcm baru je 1 week of together-ness... what a anniversary man...

To Baby: Happy 7th MONTHS Anniversay aite.... dont be sad as it never turn out the day we plan...ssmile..mid-night we see how k... hope u like the songs.. read the lyrics

Letting Out The Steam...

2009-04-22T07:00:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Kalau hati ini boleh berbicara,

sedunia akan ku ceritakan kepadanya.

Kalau perasaan ini dapat ditonjolkan,

akan dilihat la kamu syaitan-syaitan berkeliran.

DAN kalau tangan ini dapat di-izinkan melayang,

sudah tentu ke pipi nya akan ia menatap!

Hanya satu sebab ia tidak berjaya,

atas janji2 ku untuk terus berubah.

Sudah pukul 7 pagi masih aku tercegat kat depan lappy nie.. Sampai mak dan adik semua da bgn nak ke keje and ke sekola, dan sini jugak aku masih terduduk dengan perasaan gelisah and marah. Memang benar la eh, org dulu2 suka berkata, " ketawe bahak-bahak dan terlalu gembira adalah tak elok sebab di hujung harinya, kau akan menangis". Memang betul la terjadi skg..

KK, back to english... nanti Bob berpuisi malaya nanti baru tau.. ya, i was fine just now, feeling hype after the soccer match and was blogging soon after la.. but suddenly, this finger of mine, very the itchy to blog-hop around..just to kpo-ing how my frens were doing in theri daily life..

Bla bla bla...suddenly, landing at this particular FEMALE SPECIMENS...OPS!!! ok la.. no good..she's GOD creation too rite..okok, landing at this girl's blog.. when i seen her tagging me back tru her blog, i was like, HELLO??! very the laser eh the words... my excitement from high suddenly drop la sey... jatoh boi, jatoh! BOB sudah fall, bergolek2...

Yes yes yes... i was born with a very extremely hot headed character.. don't care male or female, i wack them all! when i was in my early teens age, i wack both my sisters and also nearly had this 'boxing' with my late father ( sorry dad ).In gangs, chop here and there, wack all over the place.. but with this been done, to me im standing for my rights and stand by it, regardless i'm wrong or right.. im always known to protect the one i love either frens or lover. that was when im stil in gangs la. As for my family on why i did that because of my first x... i being too defended of her till no one frm my family members could bad-mouth her...

From there, my first x cheated on me after 3 yrs and i suffer after that and venge my anger to other innocent girl... i would tear and pierce their heart deep2 till they are totally hurt ( i mean, emotion wise eh), would spike their drinks and let my frens rolling on her and more la eh.. too detail no good to know.

Than later, i'm with my second x which is before my current one. 3yrs together also but yet again she cheated on me... imagine this eh, she had sex with another guy on our 3 yrs anniversary...cool rite..what a ehem-ehem...cannot say that word.very wrong... but in between this 3 yrs, my hand did swing to her a few times...its all started where she's trying to test my patience even after i gave her a warning to stop. The worst one was when her face was bloated and blue-back...her eyes were red in color..and end up must go hospital..frm there la our relationship starts to be rocky...

Than comes to ITE..same old story... with the boys i had around me, i feel like im getting frm bad to worst...but this time, i must admit, i have tone down my anger a little bit with the help of my classmates... but, this time was different...my devil wont start if people never start to find fault at me or my boys or even my classmates..i could see how much i love my frens around me until i could not sit to see or even hear people talk bad things abt my classmates... even teachers too... they wanna scold our class, make sure they scold me first than i shall talk with the class nicely... don care how badly i been scold but atleast, dont scold the class...JR0701B would know all this things. The last bad thing i ever done in ITE, is to whack a guy name Fitri... and that was to teach him a lesson on cheating one of my dearest lil sis in my class.. and what he receive, is only minor ok... but seriously, thanx to Zaim for stopping the fight..

Than comes Baby in my life... had a rocky first 2 mths... to my surprise both of us buat perangai..i went to meet my x secretly to help her do her project..but end up i did admit to baby... than soon after, i caught baby going out in the middle of the night, with other guy...so there it goes, 5 tight big smack for her... but after that, i regret till now, cause i could still recall back how sorry her facial was, how sad she was and how miserable she was. and aft that smacks, i could see how hurting she is, how painful she endure and no matter what, she stil beg me not to leave her...and that, is my final straw.... no more this attitude of mine no matter how temptation the situation i had with anyone..cause she always there to remind me...

That's explain on why i adore her, i love her soo much now, i keep missing her because why, she manage to change and understand me...i appreciate her more now... when she's sick, i would always take her sickness away frm her and pass it to me ( only she knows how).. no matter how stress she is with work or family problems she had, im always her punching bag, where she could throw her tantrum and even scold me for nth...as long as there's a limit and also it makes her feel good.. and even frens... she used to has this frens problem ever since she's with me where i believe all of them mis-judge her... everyday she cry and cry cause why...she treasure her frens but cant believe she's been hurt just like that... it breaks my heart but i always told ourself, be patience as one day, one fine sunny day, the clouds would go away and people would see the truth. now, she's more than happy as some of them did on good terms with her except for one la which i was mad about right now la..

So, tell me. Is it wrong for me to stand up for my love one, without any harm and violence involve? for the first time, is it wrong, standing up for my girl in a right way?? is it wrong for standing up for her since she's been label alot of names?? is it wrong standing up for her rights as she's innocent?is it wrong standing up for her since she's been hurt enough by 'her'...?and is it wrong standing up for self-esteem and her dignity as a fren and as a lady...?

Im not saying she cant stand on her own...yes girl, i wont interfere..but let me tell u something my 'precious girl', what ever i do or wanted to say to you, i did ask her permission first.. and listern, if you were in my shoes, you will also do the damn same shit thing like i do... dont u dare say u wont... if u wont, shows that u don realy love ur lover...

and girl, reflec back on the times at school where u and my baby were caught s******* in the library...remember?? who told u to stop and not be greedy but you continue it soo and end up being caught and all the lecturers were blaming my baby for being the master mind cause why...u trying to put that decent face of urs in front of the lecturers... SHE SAVE YOU ONCE!

Next, remember the time where the incident where you brought you bf back to your home when there's no-one...and only god knows what both of you were doing, ( i wont say anything), where suddenly ur brother came home and u freak out??? and because of u, ur so called x bf, name NAZ, fell from your house to the ground..and how high u live..? 8, 9 storey high?? and poor chap he is, he suffered multiple broken bones all over his body and luckily he's alive and where were you when he's in hospital???? not even a visit to him! and when his family and friens all tried to find u at school, who were there to shield you out and cover you... my baby again... SHE SAVE YOU TWICE!

After all the up and down together, this is what u did to her?? haiz.. Until now, they are stil asking about u whenever they saw me or Baby, but we try our very best to again cover you... why dont u face it? you know how to make a situation in your life, but do you have the guts to have it settled??? yar yar yar..u may brag u have weaknessess in ur blog watsoever... everyone does my dear... its a matter on whether u face ur weaknessess and change it.. im never scared people telling me off abt my attitude, age, how ugly or fat i look etc etc etc.. i swallow all that and change cause i know, when people critise me, means they care!!! i accept!

But u r not doing that..in fact, u pushing it back to us, blame us further more, and make this wonderful software called "BLOGSPOT", to be a war between us... why must we come and find u? did we owe u a living or even explaination?? what fault has baby done wrong to you?? maybe a small misunderstanding i like to take it, but is there a must you must bad mouth abt her to our frens or who-ever.... dont u think im not aware... Take example fatin..( sorry fatin) she admit she had big mouth, and yar me and her always fighting over small things, but atleast, we accept our faults and apologise and be normal from there... i never ever had issue of her big mouth in fact, i like it...she's kecoh and that makes who she is..that is her...

Co'mon la Maisarah, stop being and putting a goody2 face and character infront of evryone k...u told me i do not know you?? think back and carefully k... just think back...let me help you, for start, we are frm the same same class, the rest u think urself k. Like baby told u, i wont interfere, but im trying to let you know how i felt abt the whole situation... if i were to interfere, that would show that i have not change... think wise ok maisarah... spam me if you want la... say anything hideous abt me or my attitude... bad mouth me if u wanted too.. u r free to do that...

i just like to convey a msg to you... not all bad people remains bad, and not all good people remains good. sometimes the person whom seems, to look very nice person, is sometimes, the worst human of humans after all.

Meanwhile, i would like to take this opportunity to appologise for the spamming at ur blog, the harsh words i said or even certain things i say that accidentally hurt you.. im sorry but atleast, venging out my anger thru here is much better than use force on people.. No one hurts and my hand do not hurts too...atleast, vulgarity is minimise here... so than, reflec and think. The rest, my Baby Lurve will handle it as she is much stronger and smarter now...

~Sorry~

P/S: I'm sorry Baby for posting this post on air... you were asleep as i cant control it..need some place to guuss--frraaa--baaa!!.. sori baby, lurve u!

GOAL Fiesta!!!!

2009-04-22T05:30:00.012+08:00

Dear Diary...

[Heavy Content Ahead--Only Permit for Boys / Men]

AAAAAAAAAARGGGHH!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm happy and sad at the same time now!!!!! GOOOSH!!! Okok .. seriously, my whole body is still trembling till now ... the after effect of a beautiful game where it's rare now days ..

Gusss---Fraaa---Baaa!!!

Bismillah.. basically, today game is ARSENAL vs LIVERPOOL.. and kick-off was at 3am at Anfield ( Home-Ground for Liverpool) just now.. i expected my fav team ARSENAL, to lose this game after watching the first half. LIVERPOOL were dominating in the first half but the score line was ARS 1-0 LIV !! I admit, i beginning to like the way liverpool played recently, ever since their coach had sign a long deal, but what can i say, ARSENAL is still the best.. they played beautiful soccer where it's so pleasant to watch but frustating at times..

OKOK!!! Let me explain how the score went ok...EXCITED BEB!!! Here it goes...

LIVERPOOL [4-4] ARSENAL

36min ( Arshavin )-------------------->Liv 0-1 Ars

49min ( Torres)----------------------->Liv 1-1 Ars

56min ( Benayoun)-------------------->Liv 2-1 Ars

67min ( Arshavin ) -------------------->Liv 2-2 Ars

70min ( Arshavin ) -------------------->Liv 2-3 Ars

72min ( Torres )----------------------->Liv 3-3 Ars

90min ( Arshavin ) -------------------->Liv 3-4 Ars

92min ( Benayoun )-------------------->Liv 4-4 Ars

-GAME END-(96min)

What can i say man.. It's like playing police and thief... neither side play badly la.. it's just a simple mistake and Lady Luck plays apart in this game too. when my team was leading 4-3, where the goal was superb, i tot, ok, we gonna win but well, a slacking defending pay the price within minute..haiz.. sad rite, but it was a superb game from starting till end.. and just look at the time now and i'm not yet sleeping.. Baby was coming over soon in about 7 hours time man and here i am, excited like a small kid... hehe. Hope to post the goal here later..

Before i shut-down my lappy ..... ARSENAL .... ARSENAL .... ARSENAL .... !! How i wish Firdaus was around and my leg could have walk now. Confirm both of us going down to the Arsenal's fan club to watch this game... FIR, too bad kau dlm camp!!! rugi tak dapat tgk!!! BLUEK!! hehe...kk enough, childish of me..

~Toddles~

A Quick post..

2009-04-18T01:50:00.001+08:00

Dear Diary...

Yeah, i would be very quick on this aite. The songs 'My Love' by THE DREAM FT MARIAH CAREY, was first notice by me when i was bored at home doing nothing recently and just tune in to MTV. BOOM! This video clip came on and i was like, damn! Nice lyric.. The lyric really do caught my attention.. it's so familiar in my love lyfe dude.. Well, even though i hate Mariah the Carey or even Beyonce, when comes to a nice song and lyrics, i'm up for it man!

So yar, decided to dedicate this to Baby and so glad that she love it too...! Mean-while, enjoy the lyrics and groovy grinding along yar

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[The Dream]

Radio Killa

did a song with the American Dream

They can't put it down like this, no no no no

On my baby, she my shawty

Oh, we rockin

They gotta trip all up on their breath

They hate on us

Now who’s right there every time you cry?

Go to sleep and wake up on your side?

Endless love I'll always provide

They hatin on us and you should know why

But who’s been lovin you lately?

Who’s willing to go half on the baby?

Who who who’s trying to flag our ship?

They just tryin to get the love you give

But baby,

[Chorus]

Tell me what they know about my love (my love) [x8]

[Mariah Carey]

So they don’t understand why I'll never leave you

Explain my love? I don’t need to

Got everybody way up in our business

Cuz leavin each other stay on their wish list

I see them reachin everytime you call me baby

They on my back like a shirt, get off me baby

They don’t love me, let them wonder why

Here to stay and they going bye bye

Who’s the one calling you baby

Who’s in love with your ass like crazy?

Who who who’s gonna flag our ship?

They just tryna get the love u give baby

Tell me what they know about my love (my love) [x8]

My love is your love

There ain’t nothing in this world that they can do to make me give you up

Oh baby you will always be my girl

so let them do whatever, say whatever

Cuz I ain't givin her up

Tell me what they know about my love (my love) [x8]

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Back To The Past...

2009-04-17T02:19:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...

I can't sleep out of sudden so here I am, going thru all the pictures I had in my lappy. I came to this folder of mine, where I named it "Future Nurses To Be". All of my nursing friends from 1.1 till 2.2. I was laughing as i watch some videos, pictures etc. Gosh, how all of you, my frends, grows up and see the difference in each of you. Especially to my JR0701B... Lurve You All Aite!!

Yes, it's true sometimes when u started to bond well together, there's always some misunderstanding occurs which is unavoidable. But, what it takes is just a solution where you had to have to solve it.

Happy moments we had, sad ones, irritating ones and even crazy ones. It's worth it cause that's what I like to called, "Family Bonding". Haiz.. I miss my class, where it seems to me is like, 1 big family, knowing each others flaws and good points. What else can i ask man..

First, we had mother of the class ( Mother Michelle), sister of the class, ( Sister Jane),

Beauty in our class.. ( Atiqah, Fiszah, Umairah)(Lina, Hui Juan, Maisarah, syaqila)(Fifi, Nana)(Fatin, Jannah, Liyanna Lalat, Tasneem Banu, KAk Fad, Shol)(parveen, Poovli, Sze Yu)(Fad, Ajin, Shol Kening, Amalina) (Man Xin, Zoe, Hui Min)...

Hunks of the class ( Suhaimi, Firdaus, Jia Jin, Terence, Haikhal, Ahmad, Hafitz)!!

And And And, how can i forget YOGES!!! hehe ..Late DeepaSri ..Yuzie..Liyanna Buddha..Jun Hong.. and 2 other chinese girl whom drop out, sim sorry i can't remember your name.One of u name Cherry ( where the boys call, "si babi"--tak baik kepe)

Seriously I miss all of them.. I DO!!!

Hey, not forgetting about my CP frens aite! you guys rockz like hell dude!! Now than i realise..since first year, i always change to a new group..hmm.. But it's ok.. Still, all of you are still happening beb!!

Here something for ALL whom i consider friends out there.. Read and reflec aite.

A friend is a treasure that everyone has.

Sometimes they come, sometimes they pass.

Your friends will stay if you don't betray or lie,

Or leave them behind.

Just put this on your mind!

A friend is what you need,

To succeed in this life.

In this world were you can't live you can't breath,

Life will be unfair but your friend will be there,

To give you hope, and faith,

And a path that is right to take.

This will lead you to your dreams,

That you never thought would come true,

That is being friends forever with those around you.

Sometimes you forget,

What your friend has done.

You just stab them in the back,

And leave them behind.

But when it comes to them,

And they don't do the same,

You just turn your back,

And do it again.

But one sunny day,

You will be alone,

Then you will realize that all you once had is gone!!

Let me take you guys to a journey of a group of boys, who came in as blur as sotong, as innocent as Pee Wee and as cute and humble as it can be...

This was 1.1.. See how Boy-Boy they look. Evey each of them looks soo innocent. A boy name Hafitz Black was not introduce yet in this time as he was a late entry to the course.

Hahax!... 1.2.. Not much change but atleast we saw their crazy side.

Early of 2.1 .. still the same old crazy boys but beginning to take a step to 'upgrade' themselves. This is where it started as the group started to bond as 1.. Previously was divided into 2 groups.. but slowly as they mature, their bond becoming more tighten up!

As thick as Blood.. can't separate them by now.. End of 2.1.. hairstyle starts to change..body size starts to drop... face starts to be more mature and attitude starts to be hooligans ( second year mah!)But no matter how they behave in this 2.2, one thing for sure.. they can't run and hide from their craziness where they started it since first year.. See, what's suhaimi is wearing.. whose female uniform was that?? make a guess... hehe

oO YAR!! A glamorous event which they cant seems possible to forget forever...

A CHANCE TO BE A STAR FOR THEIR JUNIORS TO BE REMEMBERED....!! perform on one grand special day for all nurses, Nurses Day!!!

Haiz... that's the story whom i would declare, my brothers! seriously, without them, I'm a nobody in school. Without them, i would never excel in my studies. Without them, there would be no sweet and sour memories in school and without them, there would be no JR0701B to be remembered of. Their jokes, laughter, rowdy character and also their adoring charisma, which is easy to mingle with anyone any place, any times, brings out the character in them. Me, as being part in their life, is very gratefull to them. Another words, I MISS THEM ALOT!! *sob-sob*

o yar, side track abit, arsenal won!!! wohu!!! MAN-U, u going down bro, down 7 under and beyond!!! But sad la, Liv lost..damn celsea..!

She's My Dream Girl To Be...

2009-04-15T23:00:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary...

TA-DA!!! licin eh kepale ku... hehe. Baby reached my home around 3pm plus to do my dressing but i was sleeping soundly when she came. Terkejut kejap when i saw her tercegat outside of my room. Woke up slowly, dengan badan belom mandi dari pagi, go have a quick bath and than proceed the dressing.

Could see that she was a lil piss with me as i keep nagging and being paranoid while she does her work. Sorry la, you know me when comes to this...

After that, we had lunch, chill and talk with mother.. she update her blog and surf the net... So, basically, she went off at 8pm... Aww..rindu kepe! Here comes the best part.. Let's us look at what she text me...

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She: As soon as im outside alone, my hart dun feel gud..wen im at hm n reach ur hse, my hart is calm..i duno y. Kte rase tk tenteram.

Me: Mayb awk akan terserempak with sum1 dat u don wish 2 c??

She: Tkde pn.. Hmm.. Tkkn blog plk kn? Yg gambar ********** terpampang? Imposible wat...

She: Or mayb ********? Semlm i saw her..i got tell u rite?

Me: Can be any1.tak semestinya dia.but to my guts feelings as i known u well, u r just missing the times where im always by ur side 24/7

She: Aiyo!!! Mayb Kot!! Haish shusha la!!!!

Me:Sebab awk kan da biasa me fetching u, al the time with u. So, kinda insecure la when u alone

She:Yar..sort of partly true la.. miss those moments..Hmm..

Me:I'm seriously sorry dear.u know im always love u rite no matter wat. endure the time for now k syg.

She: It's ok dear.. Suddenly feel lyke wana cry sey.. ARGH!! Dun make me cry syg...

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Dat's where i called her up and console her down. Aww...she's becoming more sweeter and sweeter kepe!! Haiz...susah la kan!!!

Post Morning Syndrome

2009-04-15T07:03:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Look at the time now..its like 7am and i have woke up...can't sleep well as i'm not physically ok.. Had this blocked nose, sore throat, leg cramps and slight fever. GOSH! cool rite...it's been ages i'm down will illness this bad but kinda hate it la cause people around me gets worried. Pity them.

But one thing for sure that mother don't know is...,

Yesterday night where everyone asleep, i had a fall after coming out from the toilet. Bang my head, my right elbow and right hips to the bloody hard floor... what a nice feeling it was. Seriously, it's damn painful. I don't mind falling cause it's my fault due to my body weakness but as i already on the floor, my (both)crutches land straight on my face..aduh!! like olden malay people says, "Sudah Jatuh, ditimpa tangga plak". And who else i confide in, Baby Montel lor..

Now, looking at the sky, it's damn dark and i'm sure it gonna rain like hell. Another cold day for me i guess.

Haiz.. been heavily recently cause of boredness and a lil stress i had. Yup, some may notice that i have quit that habit before but i'm sorry, cravings came spontaneously back when i'm down with nothing to do or even having some unsettled thinking. But one thing for sure, no matter what, I'll still gonna quit that habit..that's for sure la.. with the support that i had from family and loves one...

Lastly, called me insane or lame or watsoever you want, but i'm deadly eagerly and anxiously to had my little JUNIOR BOBBY!! Yes, you heard me right.. I mean, i had this feeling for quite sometimes and all thanx to Baby.. I'm used to hate babies and I'm against pregnancy and supports adoption but all that change when I'm with Baby. We used to like, argue about this last time but as days and months gone by, knowing her deeply, i could sense this vibes coming off yearning to had one of my own.. [mengucap bob, mengucap!] How nice if i had a twin eh confirm kecoh beb, kecoh!! Imagine this, Bob, being a father... MASYA-ALLAH! *yak-dush!!* okok, back to reality... too much of wild imaginations i guess. sorry yar... but seriously, if i were to choose, preferable, an adorable baby where i could name her, Syadhina. ( SYA comes form her name syaqila.. DH comes from me ridhuan and INA is an additonal intial to make it complete) hehe. Susahla! keep on dreamin bob...

Haiz, soon later, Baby would come over to do my dressing and hang out for awhile. Can't wait for her to come, confirm my head kena 'rape' by her again.. PEACE

My Left Ankle..cak!!

2009-04-14T01:57:00.009+08:00

Dear Diary...

Time to see how my wounds are doing..wohu!! 5.30 pm went to my GP doctor for wound dressing with mother and i can tell u, it was a very extremely tiring trip there!! just imagine this k people... usually, it tooks 10min or less for me to went there normally but now, took roughly 30mins!! and and and, i was sweating like mad, huffing and puffing as if i just ran 2.4km! The distance is roughly from our level 6, nursing storey, to cafe 1.. very near kan but yet seems so far... yar, with crutches, limping all that. Now than i understand and sympathy those men or women who on crutches. Salute their bravery and effort cause i was damn 'malu' to be on crutches in public.. hmm.. lesson learn eh. True enough la eh.

So, mother went in first to see the doctor as she's not feeling well. Down with a very bad cough and flu. Haiz..saddens me to her in this state. Mane nak masak, take care of me, working some-more, house chores. It's tough being a mother. Lil sis can't really do house chores except cooking. Reason, she was been pampered by late father last time and to me, i don't see the need in the first place asking her to do the chores as i'm a guy and a brother to her. My responsibility but turns out, she need to learn to0 when emergency calls for it. Another lesson learn today!

Soon after, it's my turn and mother accompanied me.. Doctor question me and there as per normal and time for the dressing. Wohu!!! i cover up my eyes eh, take care sey!! it's so damn scary.. When all was 'naked', BOO!!! there goes my left ankle....

2 holes with stiches!!! cantik je eh the position..da mcm kaki robocop siot!! you could see my leg was a lil swollen. The part nearest towards my toes.. and the eeery part was, there's blood coming out from the left hole. Not ass-hole eh, but on the left side of my leg...panic beb..i bombard with questions to the doctor on why it's bleed la, why the 'hole' never close properly la, why sudden there's a lil pain on it and more la... paranoid rite but please la, when comes to wound and dressing, my knowledge is totally zero cause i hate wounds!!! No way to see, touch or even learn about it!!!

Haiz... So doctor advice 3 days once do dressing and i was like WTH! How am i suppose to do man!!! u can't expect me to like everytime see doctor rite.. and i can't rely on mother.. So, the next best person to rely is, obviously, my Baby Montel!! hehe... She's my private nurse...

After all done, once again, a long, tiring journey back home. PWEEEH!!!

Around 2230 hrs, Baby came over for awhile to take some of her stuff and see how my dressing is but too bad it was bandage back as requested by me cause i don't want to see the stiches. Apa lagi, complain habis-habisan ah at her!!! hehe... but she was surprise with my hair the moment she saw me at home... she keep laughing and touching my head.. biasala, the feeling of berus-jamban kata orang...hehe. We sat under my block soon after that, and talk things out lor. i keep complaining to her about my leg but it seems, she's more interested about my hairless head. GRRR! and now, she called me her Baby Botak instead of Baby Lurve!! hmph! nevermind... her mood was so manja today i don't know why cause i tot, when a girl is having their menses, they would be very grumpy and mood swing. But for her case, different plak today. hmmm... fishy2 smelly catty cat!

About 15mins later, off she took a cab and went home cause she's tired after her PM shift and tomorow she's AM. kesian kan.hmmm

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P/S: Ibu, please get well soon k. Wawan minta maaf k.. selalu menyusahkan hati ibu all this years. Insyallah, wawan akan berusaha dan habiskan attachment and cepat2 keje, bantu ibu. Akan wan masuk ke polytechnic balik and habiskan dimana wan berhenti dahulu...
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Make-Over..!

2009-04-12T23:05:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Had nothing to do the whole day of today except waiting for elder sister to came back from her in-laws house so that i could borrowed her hair shaver.

So, when me and my lil sister had that shaver, start our project of the day and that is Make-Over!! Venue= Toilet!!!

[Above] This would be a test trial for my lil sister's hand to check whether her hand is stable enough to hold the shaver.hehe...cool kan

[Above]So, it's confirm she could continue with her stability of her hand...so, here we go!!

Nice rite!! haha..shave the middle first, than the sides, than the back and finally all of it... So, i guess, all of u could imagine what's the outcome rite..haha. YUPZ!! It's the same hair style when we were in 1.1!! remember the hair fatin? the memories?hehe....

Well, get to know that, during 1.1, Baby actually started to had this crush on me..MY GOSH!! i was so fat and hairless then... never expect there's someone had a crush on me. Baby told me, what matter most was inside, rather than outside. Awwww... how i wish all females in this world had that kind of perception...

Tomorrow would be the first time i saw my bandage leg, to be open for simple dressing... can't wait but admitted kinda scary la. Well, as u all know, i hate dressing or even see any stiches or any wounds. Hmm..we shall see how tomorrow. Till than, toodles!

Time for REHAB...

2009-04-12T04:34:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary...

Yupz! Finally, OP was done and atleast now, i could concerntrate recovering and heal fast..im running out of time beb..

Basically, OP was @ 1.30pm...i manage to take note of the time before went into the OT room. The funny thing was the 'LA' was not effective for me! hahax!! When i close my eyes, doctor was talking among themselve and say that, "OK, lets start.The boy is asleep". Boo!! i open up my eyes and smile to them..they was shocked...hhaha!! And later, the doctor ask to double up the LA and that was the last time i heard anyone talking and there i go off to lala land...

Woke up and found myself in ward 76, Rm 24 Bed 10 (SGH). Eyes was still heavy to open due to the LA but manage to force it open a little and saw 5 nurses preparing to transfer me to the bed!! 5 kepe!!! dah sah berat!! berat dosa agaknya eh...lol! adminssion bla bla bla.. and look at the time was 4 plus.

Called Mother up first informing the OP is over and text Baby that i'm ok. Soon after, Nisa and Amy came over to visit me.. ( thanx guys for coming over aite..lurve you both!) we joke around and catch things up a lil and than Baby came, than Jamilah from A class came than my family came. so far ok la..

Kinda lonely when all left la..i was left alone at 9pm... can't sleep due to apek snoring, coughing, kentoting and more la..Than, Baby came over @ 12midnite to keep me accompany for the night. touching kepe! We watch this show borrowed from Fad. Interesting show and brutal..wohu! and both of us sleep at 4am.

Thanx Baby for keeping me accompany till the very next day where you continue working Pm shift aite.. Kekek ah! Supposingly, patients are very hungry and would eat up their meal rite?? but no!! for both breakfast and lunch, Baby ate my share!! hehe...cute la sey... da montel da..apa leh buat...

So now, at home sitting, besar kan perut, doing nothing at home...damn bored sia!! wanna move around is a hustle for me sey... with this crutches, i just can't possibly move around freely... the best part was, i must put 1 chair in the kitchen for me to sit and eat, 1 chair in the bathroom for me to sit and bath, 1 chair in the dinning area where i can sit and dry myself after bath, 1 chair in front of the TV where i can relax and 1 chair at corridor where i can hang up washed clothes. Thats a total of 5 chairs man!! no more dining chair for my family..saper2 nak makan, duduk kat lantai..hehe...and i get to boss my lil sister around to help me do stuff...feels like a king...(more like a king kong)

Haiz... next thing i wanna do soon is to shave my head totally bald! yeah...botak!! sori baby if u dont like it but rimas la hair da panjang...with my condition rite now, its so leceh to berdandan.... lurve u baby, lurve u mother, lurve u (both) sisters and lurve all my fwens...

To Brother Zab: thanx for the concern aite bro..u always updating urself with my condition and situation in my lyfe..thanx bro..should went out together again after my leg recovers aite.

To Atika: sori la sis..i was sleeping that time u called and lala was busy with her work sampaikan lupa nak reply..tanx for the concern aite cicak!!

Fad, Firdaus & Hical: my sis and bros..thanx for the concern you guys shown me aite..its ok tak dapat visit. i just dont wan u guys to susahkan diri...once again, thanx aite

ToYou I Pray...

2009-04-12T02:30:00.003+08:00

I was once told that as time goes by

Everything changes with no reason why

Explanations we won't receive

We're just told we must believe

GOD has a plan for each of us

This I Believe - This I Trust

Oh GOD...

What's your plan for my life?

Explanations I don't expect

Just some guidance down the right track

Show me, GOD, your plan for me

I ask this of you while on my knees

Praying to you helps me to see

The wonderful plan you have for me

Recovering I am as days goes by

Wondering when should I be revive

Just one wish if I would be given

As to see my mother regain her smile back at me

ILY MOTHER!

Freaking Out For The OP...!

2009-04-08T06:45:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...

It's finally here!! Hours away from my OP.. Mixture feelings i had. Half of me would agree I can't wait for the OP, so that my leg would get better. Other half would be scared like duh!! Like most of my peeps were asking, were, what time, what ward etc...

12.30pm @ Ambulatory Surgical Ctr, Blk 1 Level 2 (SGH). Day Surgery. KIV warded..

So, that's the detail aite people. Please pray for me plssss!! Pray so that my leg would heal ASAP and i could continue my CP!!! (ceh, boleh gitu suruh org doakan eh..hehe) Haiz...Baby could not be there sey..she had this Training Programme the whole day.. Don't know la what it is but sadden by it lor.. but nevermind. Atleast my other 2 pillar of strength is there for me..MY MUM and MY LIL SIS!!! ( kemek, abg tak chicken out eh...syg jugak kau kat abg eh.hehe)

Basically, just reach home just now around 6plus am as lepaking outside.. Baby was so adorable just now as i miss her muncy much! her voice was superb when we went to karaoke at Grandlink after her AM shift. Sang for 2 hours... and i could sense, she wanna dance but segan...haha! cute la u Baby...

Well D.D, i would be away for 1 or 2 days aite just to adjust myself after the OP. Meanwhile, taking care all of you and ya, PEACE!

Baby, I would always miss u hearty... Forgive me if i were to be @ home resting after my OP. I will miss u alot k..Well...i guess i know what would you do...surprise visit @ my hommies rite. Naughty gerl u... Btw, wrote this simple poetry when i was under ur block just now, while waiting for the time to go home... Heart You Muncy Much!

Tonight's the night for me and you,

The night to prove we were meant to be.

You mean the world to me,

and so much more,

I would give my life for you,

the one I adore.

You're the one I think of,

when I'm happy or sad,

You're the one i think of,

and am very glad to have.

Your touch is so gentle,

your smile is so sweet,

Everytime I'm with you,

my heart skips a beat.

Together, Forever,

I know it's meant to be,

for you to only be with me.

When we hold hands,

my heart fills with joy,

Just to hear you tell me,

I'll always be your boy.

When we hold each other close,

the world seems to move fast,

And it seems like forever,

though much time has past.

When we hug each other,

and i look into your eyes,

Your sweet adorable smile,

catches me by surprise.

Your kisses are so sweet,

when our lips begin to meet.

To hear you say,

I Love You,

means so much to me,

And I hope and pray that you,

will always be with me.

PMS or just simple PARANOID...

2009-04-06T23:58:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary...

I seriously had no idea what got into me today... woke up around 3pm today and decided to clean up my crib's TV area, where full of dust and also, finding "CARS" dvd for my lil nephew. But end up, the cd could not be found but atleast that area was free from dust at all.

My mood was like a cold sea breeze during a hot wheather. 1 min ok, next min ko. So, next i seriously had nothing to do so, venge all my remaining strength to my dumbells. Blast the songs as loud as i can since no one was at home, and sweat like never before. The more i see my dumbells, the more i wanna push myself...just what is wrong with me today?? yes, i weight 102kg when i in ITE but weight even heavier when i was in NYP last time. Ever since mixing with my ITE frens, sista and brothers, weight start to decline as i was upset on how heavy i am. Now, happily weight 87kg i am but still, I have 11kg to lose to achieve my goal..

Baby was working PM today... Won't lie, but some-how, i miss her badly..xtreme badly but had no idea why i just can't talk to her...i don't want my low mood to affect her..seriously baby, im sorry aite. you may piss me off a lil but thats ok as it's normal for us but it's my mood baby...not u k, so don't u ever feel bad cause that's the last thing i wanna u to feel as i will miss the cuteness of ur smile on ur face forever... u must be happy always like what i promise you before we started this journey.. gd nite my lurve...sleep tite.

GOSH!! It's like experiencing a heart-break rite now..don even know what happen to me, my mood everything la!!! chill bob....chill...Well, i guess i'm just too stress up and phoebia about the OP that coming soon. Ya, admit that i'm scared even-though it's a minor OP BUT still, the tots of it, makes my goose-bumps chills..haiz..3 MORE DAYS...patience Bob...patience..

Late Posting...

2009-04-03T21:06:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary...

While waiting Baby to end her shift, i decided to just edit some of our pictures taken last time. This picture below was taken on 27 Feb 09. We had a movie to catch at Lido.. "My Bloody Valentine-3D!" Damn nice show with the 'spec' that we had to put on to see the 3D show, it was cool. It was around 10pm the show ended and Baby stomach was grumbling as usual la. So, since she had never pampered herself to any astonishing meal, decided to treat her SWENSEN! @ the 24hrs Orchard Rd Swensen.. Her FIRST proper swensen meal!

5 SETS OF DISHES (including desserts) FOR HER SELF!!! mak ai..! tembam jugak la bini aku.. Let's see what she ordered.. and what me ordered..

(1) Mac & Chz

(2) Clam Chowder
(3) Rodeo Wings

(4) Caramel Cofy Rld

(5)Sticky Chewy Ch

(6) [ See how full the table was with her food ]

(7) [ Face of not fully satisfied. wanted more..hehe ]

(1) Fish & Chip

(2) Clam Chowder

(3) Gold Rush ( and a plain water OK!)

(4) [ Baby with her new lover, Jason-Friday the 13!! ]

We left town around 2am plus taking cab home. Carrying our own belly..wohuu!!! I can bet u guys. Give her around a few months and see her change. Confirm MONTEL!!!! hehe... ARIOS!

Journey to Dream House

2009-04-03T17:45:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Well.. I been yearning to go to Ikea @ Queenstown for quite sometime and atlast, i did on 30 March 09!! To my surprise, the last time Baby went there was when she's in primary school!! lamer kepe!

Had our laksa meal first at queensway and show Baby around the place as she's never been there. Oh well, it's my home-ground!! I was brought up there before I move to Jurong... Than, after food had settle in out tummy, off we went to Ikea.

Feeling-feeling kepe! It's like, 2 small kid went to a playground for the first time. hahax! Nampak katil, kita landing. Nampak living room, kita lepak. Nampak dining room kita feeling2 chill. Apa lagi nampak dapur, feeling2 masak, padahal Baby tak tau masak!!!! But, we did have a serious conversation regarding future house. What's her taste, what's my taste. Yes, people may says that both of us were too ambitious but trust me, with this ambition it does help me to set a goal for my future. Peace ya'll!

We had lots of fun there..we joke, we laugh, we day dreaming, (especially in the baby room) we ate $1 dollar hot-dog there and we pass-motion there too! hahax.. cool la.. Took 2 hrs plus to complete roaming the building and off we went to Anchor-Point (opposite Ikea). Baby is like, a lost gegerl coming to a new town.hehe... than last stop to, Great-World Plaza.. Lepak kepe!!

That's My Baby Boo...

2009-04-03T16:56:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

Ok, finally now I had time for myself after whole day of house chores. Suddenly i felt as if i'm a maid in this house..hehe. Oh well, hygiene purposes, i'm ok with it cause my nephew ( my elder sis' son) is always here to chill out.

Yeap, yesterday late afternoon was very piss with Baby but was surprised by her later on.. The fire in me still burning where she suddenly appear in my house! I was in my room at that moment, listerning to music, calming myself, where she pop out of n0-where. She did not apologise but for knowing her well, by coming over without me knowing, is a form of apologies from her.

Haiz.. what can i ask more from her. She owned everything (ok, 99.9%) that i wanted in a girl, minus the temper la. Watch some movies thru my lappy where she felt asleep half-way thru as she's tired from morning shift. So i just, pause the show and let her sleep la. Pity eh...hmmm. cute la she..tido mcm Baby ganyut! Adorable Baby U may be but, many things should we look at and improve from there aite dear...

Demon lurking within me...

2009-04-02T16:27:00.004+08:00

Dear Diary..

I swear I'm fuming right now.. seriously i do!! I had no where to venge this villainous emotions, no idea how to compose myselft from the whispering of Satan and even to elude people around me! Fortunately, I'm in my room, where no one could see me in this kind of state. There more i control it,the more tears appearing on my cheek. Am I that sissy or have turn soft?? or maybe, MAYBE, being too lenient to other people?? Me had no answer to all that....

I'm sorry if I venge my tots here, in my blog. To me, it's the best thing as i really do feel better after express it here. I can't possibly turn to you as unpredictable out-come may occurs when 2 hot-headed humans clashed. I'm sorry...But try to understand.

It's worries me to see how your temper getting worst nowdays. Look, trust me, I did experience the feelings u had now. It's like, a lil demon is wanting to be out from your body to create havoc. i understand but like i say before, u have the ability to change and control all that. Don't let the negative force blinded you where you may regret what the aftermath would be.

I'm been lenient and very understanding to whatever situations you had.. And thanx to you that, somehow i did feel that i'm changing for the better while im with you. Because, you believe in me and always encourage me to calm down and non-stop advising me to stop my smoking habits. Its been awhile that habit was gone...

But please, your temper began to over-shadow the beautiful, innocent, sweet you... You know what im blabbering about aite.. Think hard Baby, think. I will always be here when-ever you need me.

Awww...How sweet can she be.

2009-04-02T01:26:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary...

I had nothing to do now and can't sleep cause if i did sleep now, for sure I can't wake up to wake Baby up @ 4.30am.. she's on AM shift. Since had nothing to do and my hands are tired and carrying the dumbells just know, so i decided to just browse thru my lappy.

[I would like to apologise to all my bloggers for not asking your permission first before i display ur pictures under my "links" column. Well, to those whose not happy with it, just spam me..im direct and open about it...apologise first, sign of respect to all my frens..]

I just realise that i have never been to my lil sis's blog and read up. To me, it's her privacy. It's hard for me to explain but being a brother to her, certain things change when i'm at home. i Don't view her friendster, her blog or watsoever. To me, that's her privacy which i intend to keep it that way but i seriously had no idea why suddenly my hand itchy to view her blog.

But believe me...I'm glad i did view her! very extremely shocked on one of her post... Be the judge aite...

So, tell me...what should i feel right now... for what i can say, my eyes is teary and my heart palpate strong and hard but nevertheless, with a wide smile.. And btw, she's the same age as Baby!! Haiz.. the more i read that post, makes me miss my late father even more. I MISS U, DAD!

April Fool Day Being a Self Fool...

2009-04-01T14:39:00.011+08:00

Dear Diary...

So nice pranking BaBy Layla this April Fool morning but must admit i myself forgetten about it until my lil sis prank me first. Damn it! Sorry Baby....hehe

So, sitting here at home at this hour, doing nothing (except house-chores & prayers) really ticks me off man... Soon, i will have an appointment with Bella ( dumbells) @ 5pm since Baby is on PM shift. She had 4 off day previously after her night shift. Fooh! Spending quality time together was exquisite, but can't deny that miss having outing with the Clarke Quay Gang. Haiz... Everybody seems to be occupied nowdays with their own life and career. Atleast career eh.. As for me, I have to finish my CP first!! Put that aside first.. The main thing for me now is my Operation of my left ankle on 9 April 2009!! it's around the corner and it gives me this chilling feeling which execrate me. Yupz! You guys heard it true...9 April 2009 is my OP!!! [ Name of Operation : Left ankle autoscopic debridement & microfracture]

Extremely no idea what was that?? No worries, me too! hehe. Basically, the joint at my ankle had some broken pieces of tiny bones which left a 9mm hole on the bone joint. That's explain the pain and cracking sound i had on it..

Realisticly, had this injury due to rugby decade ago when i was 15-18 years old. Abiding the pain till one incident happen in the ward previously (ward 42, Mr sim).. i still remember him!!!! it's my last day at that ward ok!!! No-ones would want to bring him to shower or even communicate with him cause no-one understand what he's talking about but his capricious, mood swing and hot headed attributes that kept the rest from approaching him.But than, being good boy boy, last day mah, so i bring him out of the bed to shower him lor..everybody was shocked and pet pot pet pot but i just turn a deaf ear cause atleast i know i'm doing a good thing and i believe i am. In the end,after shower, wanting to put him on the bed back, he suddenly turn grumpy and i found it unmanageable and taxing.. That's where i twisted my ankle and hurts pretty bad ok!! ala, nevermind, its ok.let the matter rest la..

From there, been counting the days to my OP lor... and that's ONE of the reason why i been away for awhile... haiz, 8 MORE DAYS!!!

My Plan after my OP would be...

Rehab and Theraphy

Fasting 7 days as a promise i made to GOD for healing my leg

Continue my 2.1 2.2 Cp ( starts on 6 July 2009 till Dec 2009)

[side track a little bit-enjoy my second hari raya with Baby with PINKY Baju Kurung-wohu!]

January start my career

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Baby...

U knew what we plan for when i had my career rite... there's many things but slowly, we will achieve it ok. The house that we plan, the design that we desire and the lifestyle we agreed on, shall i make it a reality to you as i wanna you to be happy and smile always..lurve you.

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Well...that's for now folks..toodles~bye.

Movie Marathon Tuesday Express...

2009-03-31T22:00:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...

Basically, today plan was to occompany Baby to Civic Center in Woodland to print her CPF statement and to SGH, for her blood taking. Baby bought a white dress with purple design ( nice!!) and also a purple tudung. Very sweet and elegent sey.. Kinda cheap, so why not own it.

Reached SGH @ 2 plus..wanted to accompany her in the room and see her expression while taking blood but been chased out of the room.sedih kepe!! But since she's ok with the jab after that, i'm relieve la.. sayang bini beb!

Than off we went to my crib... AGENDA: MOVIE MARATHON!! First we watch Malay Horror Show since it's still broad day light. ( both nak step berani padahal penakut!) Good thing my lil sister was there to watched too. If not, i don't know what to say.

4 star out of 5!! Story line was fine but the suspend was deadly la even-though the ghost may look less scary..more look like a rubbish been squashed! hehe... Seriously, it's scary. The funny thing was, before the show started, i had one big bowl of maggi with me, Baby had a packet full of mee goreng along with 1 big jar of hot milo but we was being stop now and than due to the suspend. Potong steam beb nak makan! End up, in between of it, both of us had a big bowl of ice-cream, to cool down our nerve.hehe..

We rested awhile but than decided to watch another malay horror but seriously i can't remember the title and it was so boring and draggy sey.haiz..even Baby was bored watching it but atleast we finish watching it sey. We let the prayers time pass first in between the show and resume back watching restlessly.

5 star out of 5!! Body started to get tired and sleepy by than where she decided to went online. Looking at her engrosity with the lappy, i decided to watch the last show of the day myself.

E-herm...romantic ok!!! the show really show me how a man could be very romantic and manly in a soft gentle way, no matter how rude, stubborn and hot tempered his wife are. GOSH! a lesson learn from me...a cheeky show i must admit.hehe. Even Baby did sneak to look at the show...naughty monkey u!

Another quality time we had sey... haiz. How i wish you don't need to go home sey..if only la we are legally married, adoi!! bawak ke tidur!!! cause the show really haunting my mind.hehe. Lurve you Baby....

I'm back with a renewed soul and desire...

2009-03-28T03:24:00.006+08:00

Dear Diary...

Remember the date... 28 March 2009!!! I'm back on track now, updating for my Lil D.D... Trust me, alot of stuf have been happening all this while. HAPPENING BEB!!! but nvm, i shall take it slow and steady...stick with me and enjoy the journey into the world of me!

BACK WITH FULL OF VENGENCE!!!!

What a day for me in ward today....

2009-02-18T23:28:00.007+08:00

Dear Diary...

Officially, went back to work after my long MC (1 week) due to my ligament tear. So, first day at my new ward la.ward 47.. Things happens alot la where Sister Whoon talk to me and introduced to some of the staff there...soo touching kepe. but also thanx to aisyah la for showing me the way in the ward...

Than came HELL to me...CP lecturer called me up and lecture me about my 1 week mcs. WTH! my leg is still in pain la for-good-ness-sake!! Than, she keep condeming me la... alotz but too bad can't update here... not privacy but just can't la. U know why la...spy for lecturers are all around... so, gonna save the drama for tomorrow where i request to meet mdm phua.

AND yar, not forgetting something happen earlier on...i was smoking with some of my frens before went to work and guess what, Y-Rie...(remember him from class C??) was there smoking too...he was full of question and shock what had happen to me...either repeat of as in love life... asked him where he got the news, he told me a gerl name F_ _ _ _ (my classmates) told him...gosh!! i was pretty mad la on why must he mouth be soo big la but im ok with it...cool..keeping cool.... nanti tuduh atau maki, salah kita pulak kan..so, i just have to keep shut lor...

Haiz... so yar, with that kinda of BOMB i received from teachers where my tears went down, i seriously cant continue to work caused my mind was wondering.asked permission from the lecturer to went back home, relex my mind, she said, "i can gave u 30mins to sit in pantry and calm down". my reply was simple...."can, sure can. but i dont want my patient's safety to be in danger due to me not being able to concerntrate. who's gonna bear the responsibility"... so yar, i win..

Waited for Baby Layla for her to finish work, around 15mins, than off we sat at coffee shop to chill out...Baby was sick today, and i mean really sick ok! i was damn worried for her earlier in the morning and text Zaim and Janice, to help me look over her without Baby knewing im doing so...hehe. So, sacryfies being a lil late for work today, just to cook porridge (soft diet) for her...glad that she appreciate it la...

Here i am at home...sitting quietly in deep thoughts, feeling 'rojak' right now..mixture of feelings la...all the negative one...but yar, i did miss my Baby right now... really bad...need a shoulder to cry on...but too bad she's sick and already off to Lala Land... tooo bad lor...

Below are my cuz wedding at Tanglin..(commonwealth).. my family including my closest cuz from melaka. My mum's younger sister family...there are the one that my family are close with..enjoy!

[ My Lovely Brothers and Sisters in My Life]

[Cutey Lil Sis and Me]

[Looks like One Big Happy Family??...nah...its me and Elder sis and her son]

[Guess what..he's the same age as me, im older, but i treat him like the elder one..he's cool]

[Elder sis and me--mcm laki bini kepe!!]

[The young ones--includes me!!hehe]

[What can i say, They are Gorgeous!! MY OWN BLOOD SISTA!!]

[Putra Utara Kompang..Hate that Group alot!]

~~Quotes Of The Day~~
Find the person who will love you because of your differences and not in spite of them and you have found a lover for life.

Movie-Mania @ Woodland Library Via Lappy

2009-02-17T23:57:00.007+08:00

Dear Diary...

I know this posting came a lil late but i was looking thru my pictures folder here in my lappy at this hour since Baby Layla had already been to LALA's LAnd right after her work today...she must be very tired and with the sore she had at her arms after taken her Hep B Booster today..so yar, don't wanna disturb her than...waited her for 2 hours in her ward to fetch her home but side-track first to Cinatown to grap something to eat first. AS usual lah, we eat, we drink, we chit chat alot of stuff (future, current, problems and happy times). Than off we go home...

Wanna know smth?? Baby was asleep during thr journey home..and me too la..but i was not soo deeply asleep as to notice every stop in-case not to over pass our station. guess what...Baby was literally drooling!!! saliva went down to my shoulder kepe!!! LOL!! sori deary, but cant stand laughing la LOL!!! ade hati bangun, wipe off that saliva and when back to sleep back!!! and she don't even know i was noticing it!! wth! haha...

okkk...back to the picture..it was taken on 22 Jan 09, where we seriously had no plans where to go and decided to lepak somewhere cold and cossy..so woodland Library is the best la..sat for few hours watching movies thru our lappy..sampai beku badan...and too much movie is bad for u!! we went bonkers!! and for me, headache!! bottom of the story, had a quality time spend together..lurve you sweetheart, Muackz!

[ah, cute la muka due2 eh!!]
[haha..alien from other space---Wall-E!!]
[my adorable cutie little pumpkin honey bunny!!]

[End the day with a kiss...wohu!]

~Quotes of the Day~

"I may conquer with the sword,but I are conquered by a kiss from her."

------------------------------------------L O V E Y O U ------------------------------------------

Twist and Turns of Love Tales...

2009-02-16T23:00:00.007+08:00

Dear Diary...

Lately, had this talk with Baby Layla...a random talk about something, someone and some-how, gave me this thoughts. A meaningful ones which i never ever came to think of it. But after awhile when given it a consideration, me myself realise the true meaning and power of LOVE. It can either be constructive or destructive..You guys think and analyse it aite D.D

[P/S: BaBy, I HEART u deeply munchy much aite...cant bring myself to scold or even gave u that face even if the mistake u done is either big or small.. IDK man, but for sure, u r still the sunshine i need everyday for me to grow...and i'll be ur humble servant to serve you with loves and care aite...lurpe You.]

Scenario 1

All womens expected their partners to be loyal and faithful to them but are they doing the same thing vice versa? Womens claims that their partners change alot in behaviour and often lead her to sadness and teary after long of dates and knowing each other. Than, these womens tends to find someone better, good-looking etc etc in order to replace the 'old-ones' behind his back. Out of sudden, the women left the 'old ones' and be with the 'new-ones'. Happy life started back for the women but for how long will it last like these...is it fair for us guys? There should be other solution to improved the relationship rather than to run or find a new happiness right?

Well...what say you? Your perception, your say...

Scenario 2

There this BOY, who out of no where had this feelings for this GERL suddenly.The problem is, how quickly he change his feelings from one gerl to another. That's his problem...he has his own reason. So, this BOY tried his way, tried hard, to win this GERL heart. Where-as this GERL used to claim, she's not ready to be attached...can't move on yet due to old flames..etc etc to the whole world. So, ok...BOTH grows quite close and bonding well. It's like, from your naked eyes, they seems like a couple..compatible couple but denying there are not but actual they are attached!! So, whats the problem here?? Is the GERL all this while plays hard to get or just simply ignorance of cant resist temptation of Good-Looking Guys?? And the BOY, is his feelings true enough to be true or just another puppy Woff-Woff Crocodile feelings of in needs??

Well...what say you? Your perception, your say...

Scenario 3

There this Man and a Girl who became lovers from frenship. Where feelings for each other sudden develope for each other not because of LUST, In nEED, Looks, Popularity, or whatever. It's purely because of caring for each other, always for each other, understand and communicate effectively and importantly, respect each other...plus together all that, than it equals to LOVE.Love than develops slowly as days goes by. But still, community still condeming,gossiping and hates them being together despite the love they share is so true to be true. They are still deeply in love together till now but people still having that thoughts mostly due to the dark history both of them had...but, if there are any willingness to change within them, why chances were not given to them to show and prove that their love is true, respected and sincere?? is it wrong for 2 person to be greatly in love, sharing the loves they had for each other??

Once again ...what say you? Your perception, your say...

Tune in to next week episode...will be talking about FRIENDSHIP... back-stabbing, hyprocriate etc etc... for now, take care and try to ponder on the scenario...trust me, it's based on a true story...

--------------------Quotes of the day--------------------

Love works in miracles every day: such as weakening the strong, and stretching the weak; making fools of the wise, and wise men of fools; favouring the passions, destroying reason, and in a word, turning everything topsy-turvy.

Confession Within Me...~Friday Day The 13!

2009-02-13T01:24:00.020+08:00

Dear Diary...

Here I am, sitting alone in the dark, feeling different within myself, with tears soaking up my eyes. I'm no crying baby but well, no matter how tough a person is, there still a soft part within rite..

Fetch Baby Layla from work today..A surprise for her cause she knows i can't walk properly with my injured leg but WTH! Sayang punya pasal rite... Walk slowly to SGH Blk 7 and saw some of my frens at level 1 lift. Kinda proud la to see all of them wearing the EN-uniform, looking much more professional now. very proud of them...Congrats guys for graduate from the course and have started ur working life...

Down came Baby Layla and i decided to pay a visit to my aunt who is warded in ward 46. So, ask along Amy and Shasha and off we went up. stay for awhile, see how my aunt progressing..and later Baby Layla accompany me up to ward 47, where my attachment are, to check my schedule for monday and survey the new ward that i was posted at while amy and shasha waited us below.

Checking my schedule, talk with the sister and off we went back home. while walking, Baby Layla keep on sharing happily about how happy she was to get the ward she attach to now, had her own locker, etc etc la. Well, kinda happy for her too la. If she's happy, im happy too.

We later lepak at a coffee shop near her house to grap smth to eat and lepak awhile till 8pm..lamer kepe. spending time together lor and chit-chat as usual. than fetch her home while massaging her back while walking as she complaint of body-ache. hehe...manjanya.

Out if sudden when i was on my way back home in the bus, this feeling inside me came out of no-where till now.. feels sad, remorseful, jealous, useless and helpless...i saw my mum sleeping cause she was tired after caming back from work and that really kills me.

How old am i now...25!! 25!!! and yet still schooling...repeating my course!!? i should be working long time ago and my mum could have rest till now... and here, all my frens, who is much younger than me, have started to work!!? WTH! plus the insult i get from J, which really pierce my heart and ring a bell in my stone head... and seeing Baby Layla everyday in her uniform, really does make my morale down...

I tried to hide that feeling of uselessness thru carrying dumbells till my hand sore in tightness...as to divert the negative thoughts..but it seems to no avail...no matter how hard i try to exhaust my body, the thoughts is still there....what actually happen man?? why my mind suddenly corrupted like this...? am i suffering from denial of not accepting the reality or just plain jealousy??

haiz... i had no answer to that...seriously... everyone keeps advising me, endure and finish my attachment asap...time will fly...but, its hard for me cause all my frens whom i used to share laughter and tears together are all working in the same place as me...including Baby Layla... I have only one way to help myself... Im sorry my frens who works @ SGH... if u guys tend to bounce at me, forgive me, if my head looks down aite... forgive me if i dont approach you guys...u too Baby Layla...I Lurve you all but i guess its the best for me. My esteem is low for the moment.. forgive me...

Mount-Faber 3km walk Plus Walking @ Hort Park..

2009-02-10T02:00:00.002+08:00

Dear Diary...

CAUTION: HEAVY PICTURE CONTENT!!

Continuation from yesterday... it's 8 Feb 09 today and it's time for the event that i have been waiting for. I serious had no idea on why i was fired up for this event even though my left ankle in pain but i decided to go thru the pain regardless of what cause i have my family's support and many more.

Woke up @ 6.30am..kinda late la cause bus leaving at 7am. Woke baby Layla up and she went to bath first followed by mum, sis and me last. Walking down slowly to my Community Center where the rest of the members awaits.

Took a group photo first and around 7.15am bus arrived, off we go!!

[Group photo Of All the Ladies]

[Morning Pictures with Elder Sis,Brother in Law and Baby Layla]

[Aniq ready for the Long Walk-Socks tinggi kepe!]

Reach destination at around 7.45am... did a little warm up conducted by Mdm Norana and off we go!! All walk damn fast leaving me, limping behind..luckily, Baby Layla was there to accompany me.. So, no matter how much pain, just endure lor..as long as i get to participate and enjoy my time there which i did!!!

[warming up is a must!!!]

[Pillor of my Strength---minus the apek!]

[Lil Sis with Aniq enjoying their time]

[hmph!!! make me jealous only eh...NVM!]

[ Husband & Wife & Son]

Starting was definitely a slow one but once the engine is hot, all positive mood came. Taking pictures with different pose! Laugh as if there's no tomorrow!

[ Long way up.... Be the judge, whose but is nicer??hehe]

[Finally to the top!! Group Picture!!]

[As usual for her..pose with a beautiful scenery]

[My Sisters catching some glamour]

[Father and Son wont miss the chance of snapping picture]

Now, down we went back to other routes. Proceeding to Henderson Wave..My Favourite place where memories were created there.

[Group Picture @ the entrance of Henderson Wave]

[Alalalala....comel la tu eh!]

[Spot the similarity and differences...spoted?? answer-a same person with 2 attitude, crazy and goody gegerl!!! hehe]

[feeling-feeling Twilight, playing baseball]

The times we had at the Henderson Wave was equally fun. Scenery was nice, the weather was fine and the mood is a positive one. Next, we keep on walking till the Jungle Track where we walk thru the trees and came upon a second bridge..cool kepe...

[seriously, i don't know what have got into me to pose like this]

[Sisters]

[3 ladies that i love most---plus mum!! =4!!]

[ah..sweeeet!]

[Loving Husband and Wife]

[Haha!! see how chubby my Baby Layla is now...]

[ Cicak!!! OH, How I love to kill it with my bare hands!!]

[Feeling2 tour guide]

[hehe..joking around with elder sis while husband looking on]

[I lurve this picture]

[Mother and Son enjoying the sun]

[ see how we love the scenery...but too bad i cant jump for joy...hehe]

[Finally!! Finishing line...EXHAUSTED!]

SO, after a long walk and battle with the pain at my ankle, we finally reach the finishing line and it's time to rest and had our breakfast. Breakfast was done by one of our community member and what can i say, the mee hoon was superb!!! PLUS, the coffee-o was finger licking nice!!!!

[My Loving Family]

[My 'mums' and 'dads'--lurve them alot]

After spending nearly 3omins to fill our stomach, we decided to take a walk at the nearest park while waiting for the bus to come. To my greatest surprise, the park turn out to be damn supper hot la!!!! supper cool and damn nice!! No wonder it was call, Hort Park! There's a mini lake, mini carpet grass field, plantation, showroom-flat and many more..take a look at the picture we have took below...

[Welcome to Hort Park]

[nice rite...]

[She just can't resist seeing a swing-seat like that, trust me!]

[Cool rite...Our long lost animal frens turning into stone]

[what can i say about the swing-seat, can't resist it, including my family]

[ Show-room!!! nice...]

[haha...candid!! Baby Layla feeling2 she own that kitchen]

[Mummy love the show-room...but she seems loving her twisties much more.HEHE]

[Look at that long sexy legs she had..wohu!!]

[This cutie also wanna have a taste of the rotan chair]

[By this time, both had a wild imagination of owning our own house soon]

[Lay down to rest!!! artificle grass...]

[ 2 girls, a guy and a camera..hehe]

This was the funniest moment of the day...i seriously had no idea what went into their mind during this time. Out of sudden, the 3 of them went bonkers!! and including my nephew.... so, since i'm the one holding the camera, what to do, snap snap snap snap lor...

[ 1..squatting..2..squeezing..2 and a half..still squeezing..3....JUMP!--LOL]

[ even that little boy was on air, jumping...GOSH!]

[He was saying to his mum, " can i dont go home pls.." with a cheecky smile]

[Last pose at the pond]

So, basically around 11am the bus arrived and we were made to leave..awww..sad u know. was enjoying my time there sey..the pain in my ankle dissapear when having fun but came back again when to leave that place...haiz. Took a final group photo and off we went home.

[The men and boys that made this event successfull]

[My Malay Activity Executive Committee]

[How sad of me to see him looking thru the window at the place he enjoy most a moment ago]

Reached home around 12pm..Me Baby Layla and mum, went back home to get change first. Mum had a dinner at Istana while me and Baby Layla went to get her stuff packed, chill for awhile, having fun..hehe...than ard 1.30pm went to my elder sis place to chill there. We had a karaoke session, eat KFC, watch Horror DVD, surf the internet and slept awhile. But so sad when she make a move home around 9pm...that's the end of the 2 days i spending time with her...but whatever it is, really had a great time for the 2days....Thanks Baby for coming and be part of my family...gerek kepe! hehehe..

-------------------------------------Signing Off With A Smile------------------------------

Cool Saturday!!

2009-02-10T01:43:00.009+08:00

Dear Diary...

The date was 7th Feb 2009, Saturday!!

The day started with me, going to SGH A&E at 1pm cause my left ankle injured again. Same old site and same old problem but now, the ligament's torn. All thanks to my stupidness on transfering my patient, who is twice my size. It's ok, my fault and paid the prices for not having a proper body mechanism.

So, Baby Layla meet me there in her nursing uniform, with a wheelchair in hand. This part, i would like to thank her man for like, looking after me damn well that day. push me around where-ever i need to go. Even to the toilet!!! lucky she was there for me...sayang la katakan..ssusah la! atleast i have her to jokes with to distract my attention from bearing the pain on my ankle.

We left A&E around 4pm and took cab back to my home where all my family members were around. had our meal first before Baby Layla went to take a LONG nap! imagine this...from 5pm sleep till 12midnight... is that called a nap or what?? but cant be blame la...she was having her foundation programme dat day till 12pm and directly accompany me...must be very tired!

[My 7 Mums with Elder Sister in Pink and her son, Aniq]

7pm...mother getting prepared to perform at my Community Center for the Chinese New Year Dinner...i cant went down to see as my leg in pain. so i just have to see the video my elder sister took it lor..they are like soo cute!! im proud of my mum...

[Weee-weet!!!]

[My 7 Mums]

Around midnight was the best part..after mum have rested awhile at home, both me and mother, sat down doing 10hampers for tomorow event where we are heading to Mount-Faber for a 3km walk in the morning. while my lil sister also help out by peeling of 15 hard boiled eggs to make egg sandwitch. Force Baby Layla to wake up to bath as she slept the whole day..end up she slept at my house as tomorow have to leave the house early in the morning.

P/s: Cant describe how but seems like, Baby Layla and Mum are getting comfortable with each other. My family likes her alot compare to that B#*$?...a good sign...a very good sign.hehe. so how D.D, wedding bells soon??hehe

-----------------------------------Bonding Of Ties With Family---------------------------------

Mr Chris Wedding Cum Outing ( 31 Jan & 1 Feb 09)

2009-02-03T14:48:00.009+08:00

Dear Diary...

Look what happens when outing plan goes bonkers!

~~R21~~

Its Saturday, 31 Jan 09, and it's Mr Chris's wedding!! Finally, he did tie the knot to Mdm Chris. I wish you all the best and be happy always with ur Larling aite..PEACE.

Went to the wedding with groups of students but i just can't seem why the other half of the student just left the MRT station just like that 'someone' came with her guy...but its ok la..dont wanna think so much..start with a group photo..ALL BOYS again..complete replica of social nite..

[Baby Layla with her long lost brother...jealous fiqah iyer.. betol tak hical??hehe]

Off we went to Simei-Changi CC behind the Simei MRT. The one and only thing that really caught my attention was the food on either side of the hall cause im dead hungry!! and yar...the sweet and sour was FAB-ulous!!! halamak!!!! 2 times refill of the plate man...thanx to atiqah rahman eh...punya la bnyk kau amek tapi takpe, sebat je!

[I SWEAR i was dead hungry!!!]

[Cute Couple Always---e eh, ABG BOTAK ]

[ehem-ehem]

[2 version of Group Picture]

[soo sad.. i was away smoking while they took this picture]

After the wedding, went to block shopping awhile to get Baby Layla a footwear as her hills is killing her...wohu! daylight robbery!!! when all settle, than off we go without not sure where to go..some say shesha...some say karaoke la...some say sim lim la... End up we go....

[Last Group Photo before we went separate ways]

KARAOKE!!!! Me, Baby Layla and all my anak2....you know who you are ok!! spend till 7pm...2hrs sing non stop and gosh!! the 2 gerls voice was tip-top on that day...cair kepe!!

[Look who's sleeping behind me.... my son, who have been in army recently]

[like father like son!!--going mad after sing session]

Spend 1 hr outside Grandlink discussing where to go next...ended up fill our tummy with food first at Singapore Post behind Payar Lebar MRT..Eatting LJS as usual lor.

[Picture after dinnerat LJS]

Seriously, we had no idea where to head next..all of us have the strong feeling not to go home and overnight somewhere. but firdaus left to Town as he wanna wonder around alone. So, we have decided while we are in the train and that really took alot of thinking to plan...The plan was....

Baby Layla followed Shasha back home in clementi to get her stuff
Me followed Amy back home in CCK to get his stuff
12-midnight, we meet in the train at Yew Tee
All proceed to Baby Layla home in woodland
1.30am,took cab to Jurong to get my stuff
Finally settle down in one of 'our' fren house. time check=2.30am!!
All wash-up and settle down and watch SUSUK DVD.
4.30am, cook maggi 3 packet, share 4 person. this part, all of us had the same mind-set that we are as if living in one house with the character of 4 of us!! cool kepe!
5.30am all slept like pig!

what interesting was that amy pose for gay porn @ 'our frens studio'!!! sajak kepe!! TAKE A LOOK BELOW....

[MASYA-ALLAH!]

left the house @ 11am
proceed to makan at jurong point
than back to jurong to put my stuff
proceed to Kallang Leisure Mall to play Bowling..time check 4pm!!
Than went 'somewhere' to chill till 9pm. after much discussion!!!
Off we separate at Kallang MRT @ 10pm!!

[Pictures @ Boon Lay Interchange]

[ Stomach Bloated after eating and Baby Layla going hyper!!]

[apa buat huh....]

[haha!!! 3 monkeys lost their way in bus]

Another long outing together after soo long. hmmm...kinda like it la spending this kind of time together. plan maybe chock-up here and there but bottom line, we did have a hell of fun yar!!!

--------------------------------------ENJOYS ALOTS------------------------------------------

Confussed + Anger + Sad + Lost

2009-01-27T22:34:00.002+08:00

I remember a type of quote people used to say

But I never really understood it 'til today

Life will only get harder from here

I think about that almost every time I shed a tear

I look back on the happy years I once had

And I wish for them to come back Oh so bad

Pressure is a big part of teenage lives today

Temptations of sex, drugs, and violence never seem to go away

You never really know which road to choose

It seems which ever way you go, your bound to lose

Happiness eventually falls on your lap

Only to look once more and see it gone in a snap

Why does it seem I can't smile like before?

As if the joyous part of me walked right out the door

I never show my true feelings which is why I'm writing this poem

I guess my feelings are personal to me and I'm too embarrassed to show 'em

One day I'll find happiness again

I just have to live my life until then

And while I'm waiting just for that

I think I'll give myself a pat on the back

'Cuz I've come this far without giving up completely

I'm trying to enjoy life, it's very difficult, believe me

I guess that's the message I'm trying to send out

To keep your head up when giving up is what your thinkin 'bout

Take life's punches right in the face

And you'll see things will come to you at there own pace

Control Your Temper

2009-01-27T22:21:00.002+08:00

Everytime you blow your tops off...either with a valid or no valid reason, u still blow up like no-one business!! hey gerl, if it's a big matter u are mad about, i can understand..but over a minor things u wanna be ticked off?? just what are u trying to show ah... u think, only u can venge ur anger anywhere, anytime and anyhow as u please is it...last warning to u...don't provoke me aite..don't.... hope u better learn to control it eh...if me, who was born with a hot tempered blood within, can control, y can't u!? like i say....enough is enough...control...

Movies Im Waiting For

2009-01-27T18:57:00.008+08:00

Title: Underworld 3: Rise of The Lycans
Release Date: 22nd January 2009

The prequel story traces the origins of the centuries-old blood feud between the aristocratic vampires known as Death Dealers and their onetime slaves, the Lycans. In the Dark Ages, a young Lycan named Lucian (Sheen) emerges as a powerful leader who rallies the werewolves to rise up against Viktor (Nighy), the cruel vampire king who has enslaved them. Lucian is joined by his secret lover, Sonja (Mitra), in his battle against the Death Dealer and his struggle for Lycan freedom.

Title: X-Men Origin: Wolverine

Release Date: 30th April 2009

"X-Men Origins: Wolverine" goes back to the time before the X-Men trilogy to tell the story of Wolverine's epically violent and romantic past, including his complex relationship with Victor Creed (who later becomes Sabertooth) and the ominous Weapon X programme. Along the way, he encounters many mutants, both familiar and new, including surprise appearances by several legends in the X-Men universe.

Title: Fast And Furious 4

Relase Date: 12th June 2009

Vin Diesel and Paul Walker re-team for the ultimate chapter of the successful franchise built on fast cars and furious drivers. When crime brings them back to Los Angeles, fugitive ex-con Dom Toretto (Diesel) reignites his feud with agent Brian O'Connor (Walker). However they are forced to confront a common enemy, so Dom and Brian must give in to an uncertain new trust if they hope to outmanoeuvre him. The two men go back to doing what they do best - push the limits of what's possible behind the wheel.

Title: Transformers: Revenge of The Fallen

Release Date: 26th June 2009

Director Michael Bay is leaking out tons of false information, so chances are nobody will really know what it's going to be until it comes out. However, while nothing is confirmed, both Michael Bay and producer Steven Spielberg said in interviews that, if they ever made a sequel to "Transformers", they would make a big-screen adaptation of the Unicron Saga, since they feel it's the most logical plot for a sequel as it spans nearly every form of Transfomers media (the original series, the newer cartoon and the comic books). Rumour has it that Megatron will return and that there are two new Transformers - the Decepticon Soundwave and an ancient transformer known as The Fallen (reportedly a disciple of Unicron).

Title: Ice Age 3:Dawn Of The Dinosaurs

Release Date: 2nd July 2009

(Trailer Click Below)

http://www.iceagemovie.com/

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W4gvxUlGNAs

The fun and lovable Diego, Manny, and Sid all return for another adventure - this time involving dinosaurs! "Ice Age 3" to be fully produced in 3-D, is the latest instalment to the hit "Ice Age" franchise, which has grossed more than US $1.2 billion around the world. The film is being produced by Academy Award-winning Blue Sky Studios, the creative force behind all the "Ice Age" films.

Title: Harry Potter And The Half-blood Prince

Release Date: 16th July 2009

Lord Voldermort is wreaking havoc throughout Britain as Harry Potter begins his sixth year at Hogwarts. The pressure to defeat the Dark Lord grows stronger in the young wizard. Using an old Potions Book which previously belonged to the 'Half-Blood Prince', Harry is able to increase his magical knowledge and prepare for battle. However, he must first help Dumbledore discover the secret to Voldermort's quest for immortality - the location of his Horcruxes. But the quest for the Horcruxes and the resulting battle at Hogwarts produce a tragic outcome - leading Harry to believe that he must head out on his own to conquer the Dark Lord.

Title: G.I Joe: Rise Of Cobra

Release Date: 2nd August 2009

Set approximately ten years in the near future, a special military unit known as the "G.I. Joe" arises from the Cobra Organisation, vowing to take down any crime organisation led by a notorious arms dealer. With their team operating from the headquarters known as "The Pit," the film will include stunning locations from the Arctic, Paris, Moscow, Australia and the Sahara desert ( basically, this was a cartoon shown in 1990s and it's cool ok!)

Title: Final Destination 4

Release Date: 27th August 2009

When Nick O'Bannon had a premonition of a race car fatally crashing and instantly killing his friends in the most gruesome way, he decided to just shake it off. But when everything looks so real, he began to panic and persuaded the other teenagers to leave the place immediately. Soon after, debris began to fly and all his dreams turn into tragic reality. As for Nick, along with his girlfriend, Lori and her best friend, this is just the beginning. When survivors began to die one-by-one in a most horrifying way one can imagine, Nick must think of a way to cheat Death once more.

Chinese New Year Da`ey For Me

2009-01-27T13:47:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary....

It's been 2 days been sitting at home. Not rotting but luckily there's alot of stuff dat i can do. Basically all the house chores la. Can't leave it to mum to do it la..mane fair. she's getting on age and stil want her to do?? isk isk isk. Bored la hell man..finish all the chores, here i am left nothing to do. Recovering from my migrane and what else, carrying some weights to distract the pain lor.. tomorow, start back attachment and guess what... Layla gonna start working soon. Jealous nya aku!! basically not her only la...JR0710 intake is gonna start working in a real life.gd luck guys!!

Well...what else eh...hmm. o ya! yesterday went to ella's sister wedding at marsling. me, Layla, Sikin and her husband plus their 2 babies... Sikin( Layla sec schl fren)who has 2 kids, a gerl and a boy...mak ai! feeling2 kejap angkat anak laki die...if im not wrong, he's 3 mths old. and the baby gerl is 2yrs old..the 2 gerls went to salam the parents of the bride while me and CD (sikin husband), each carry a child, waited outside to sit..haiz. susah la kan..after the event, we went back home.bored kan...yar...i know. kla...left nth else to say...

~GONG XI FA CAI~

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Poetry For My Friends

2009-01-27T12:36:00.003+08:00

Frenship wise, kinda hard 2 explain la.. misunderstanding and bad judgement is a key to the down-fall of a frenship. kinda sad for me to see you gerls frenship is rocky as hell... but im sure there's a way to undo it. sure im not involve in it...gerls matter wont i interfere..just wanna know the truth thats all. to the person who just cant keep shutting the mouth, spreading what happen to my lovelife (example: the wacking thingy..), i have nothing to say aite. only you were there plus another gerl. and im damn sure its u who told the rest but im ok.what goes around comes around.a piece of advice: get ur facts and details clear first before u pass the news aite..or else people may think differently...u know who u are... lastly, here lies a simple poet for all my frens..

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As a friend I do wish you

The best of life's blessings

And freedom from sickness and pain.

May your prayers and oblations,

As blooms of carnations,

Flourish in sunshine and rain.

May the blessings of heaven

Be showered upon you

With favor from God and from man.

May you harvest with pleasure

The fruits of your labor

To share with whoever you can.

May the dew in the morning

Refresh and delight you,

And your days be filled with great peace.

May your nights without number

Be filled with sweet slumber;

Your dreams filled with hope ne'er cease.

May your mate and your children

Bequeathed and beloved

Be cherished as jewels set in gold.

May your joy blend with laughter,

Both now and hereafter,

As the days of your life unfold.

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Time to be serious now..finish it and get over it!

2009-01-18T19:03:00.003+08:00

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Dear Diary...

Tomorrow would be the day that im gonna start my new year resolution...concerntrate upon finish my attachment...start my gym routine and bring myself near to 'HIM'. i knew its a big task ahead of me but DD, my soul is burning of motivation to do well and change myself..oh GOD, if possible, give me the strength to stop my smoking habit please...

Well, thats for now than...Shall update and see you again this Friday DD...

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A New Year, A New Thinking

2009-01-18T01:45:00.005+08:00

Dear Diary...

It's been 2 weeks now and i have just finished my KKH posting and ward 62. Over with KKH now, SGH, here I come again. Not that really sure why this feeling does exist in me, but i damn sure it's revenge time. In a good way la... It's not easy for me 2 repeat back..kinda unfair to me. Most of the students successfully get away by not repeating but why me? Am i that really bad till all the teachers blame me on how my classmates behaving before? One thing for sure, now, you lecturers will see how i perform this time around. No more Mr Nice Bobby or watsoever..to my new Cp friends, things gonna get nasty @ SGH...so be prepare.

Seriously DD, what do actually I'm lacking at man? People passing bad remarks on me with Layla..People been gossiping and hates us for nothing..what do actually we did wrong man...? is it me or her? if its either one of us, MYOB la..GOSH! But never-mind.. To those who are the people im refering at, listern carefully, goes to you too aite "M", If u hate my Layla that much, well, keep to yourself.there's no need to psyhco people on hating her aite...i will never interfere this issue but once i get to see you again soon, you will get my BOMBING BOM Question aite...same goes to people out there...

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Peace ya'll

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Getting ready to Shop and Bond...

2009-01-10T03:52:00.010+08:00

Dear Diary...

Event: Window Shopping for 'Prom' + Having Fun!

Date: 13 & 14 December 2008

Today plan was to window shop!!! social night is coming and all of us really had no idea what to wear and have second doubts about going but, for the sake of JR0701, it is a MUST TO GO!!! So, Amy, Fir, Shasha, Me and Baby Layla decided to went out together to do some window shopping and spent time together.

Me and Baby Layla went to bugis market first to survey her stuff and i admit la, a lil frust la cause she can't make up her mind. Hour later, nisa and amy came to join the window shopping. In the end, the place was getting more stuffier and we decided to go far east and also meet firdaus there.

And it was there where all the drama and temper flare up.had enough of her fickle minded! here i am temper rising, she can still continue buat perangai...aduh!! but end up, we had a good talk in a proper way and was settle.

Suddenly, all of us don't feel like going home yet...still wanna enjoy ourself so, we decided to go karaoke at Cash Studio @ Town but it was fully occupied!! no choice...we proceed one level up to play pool than.

[Baby Layla & Fir]

[Shasha & Amy]

after 2-3 hours of pool, yet again not satisfied and all plan to overnight outside!! wohu!! but shasha is half hearted but no issue on that...cause we had amy to psycho her...hehe and it works!!! so next stop, proceed to cineleisure... but while walking there, serious kepe, da betol mcm tourist sey...took picture like we never went to Orchard before.heheh... We bought 5 tickets for Twilight! wohu...and the shows starts @2.20am and we had 1 hour to spend before it starts...so, down we go to Long John Silver to have our supper, 2am....up we go!!!!!!!

hehe...amy psyhco-ing shasha

ohh......

The sad thing is, Baby Layla and Firdaus slept thru out the movie!!!! IMAGINE THIS AITE.... i was in the middle of both of them....my left was Baby Layla, where she keep snoring away, and my right was Firdaus, where his head keep bumping to me...thru out the whole movie ok!!!! Mak ai...mcm2 dengkuran dan 'head -bangers' aku kene...COBAAN!!!

Time check= 4.30am. Every one was damn tired and sleepy by that time.. Final Pit Stop, My HOuse!! we share 2 cabs, proceed to my house and everyone slept so soundly!! except for firdaus where he left @ 7 due to family problems...

Last Group Photo after Movie

Next afternoon, woke up, freshen up and 4 of us went out again to CCK Lot 1 to shopping...bought Baby Layla a black dress at Cotton-On and shasha bought herself a yellow dress...all of us went back home after we had dinner at LJS again....wohu! what a double day it was....

Shopping for Me....

2009-01-10T02:55:00.010+08:00

Dear Diary...

Event: SHOPPING

Date: 16 December 2008

It's been a tough week as i still can't get any of my stuf for the social night! Baby Layla could rest her mind as she has everything ready to wear on that coming day but me?!

So, today my plan was to shop my stuff..don't as me where i get the money from aite..i have already spend 800bucks on Baby Layla and this time i was penniless!!! a great sacrifies i have to made to dig out some cash for myself...

Went to queensway first to alter my white pants and survey on what shirt were to be bought..meet shasha halfway as she just finish her attachment @ 3. nothing interesting, next we proceed to arab street to get some stuff for shasha...and guess what is that stuff?? a flower for her to be worn on that day! my god, gerls nowdays!!!

Bugis is next where me and amy finally get to buy our shirts!! and i spurge a lil to get myself a shoes!wohu! nice baby.... than we headed to town and meet up with firdaus. Went to far east to get shasha's hair done. while waiting for her, went down to meet my Baby Layla as we had a lil misunderstanding for the day and meet up to clarify things...coincidencely, that day she had her CP outing at Sakura at Town..

When shasha's done, 3 of them went back home and as for me, i tag along with her frens.kinda havoc la...pretty does calm my nerves down as i was fuming with baby...but in the end, all things is smooth and thanx for the gerls that makes my day...thanx!

[Lesbo Partners!]

[Kak Ju & Hubby]

[New frens Made...]

[wifey 1-she's cute rite!!?]

[wifey 2-Looks really like a couple,am i rite, ryan?hehe]

[ hehe...not wifey 3 but ORIGINAL WIFEY EH! hehe]

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Advance Birthday Celebration...

2009-01-10T01:53:00.008+08:00

Event: Advance Birthday Celebration For Amy & Shasha

Date: 26 December 2008

The day begans by fetching my Baby Layla from her hometown in woodlands. Mother nature was damn hott and i was kinda not feeling too well that day. We smoke a puff first than later took a cab, proceeding to Grandlink @ Haig Road, meeting the rest for karaoke sessions as per request by the birthday couple.

I admit that plan for the day was terribly kork-up! my apologise to Fhad and Ajin as we keep changing the plans. P.S: (Sorry babes, due to that, you gerls don't feel like tagging along but it's ok.consider our fault aite.) Amy booked the room for 1 hour but later on, added another 1 hour as all of us are serious hooked in singing and TAKE CARE EH SHASHA!!! for once u had been a malay by singing all that jiwang songs! shows that you are still minah J deep in u! And yar, not forgetting my baby...lurve it when you sing baby! superb duet together huh! hehe.

[Hot-Hot Ladies!]

[Boyz To Men]

@ 6pm, Hical and Syafiq came and meet us in the karaoke room and was like, jatuh boy! kecoh! sat down awhile before off we went to meet Titi and Hafitz to had our dinner at Long John Silver.. and i swear, Titi and Burn does do look compatible together..mayb the fact that both sweet blacks (hitam manis)hehe...seriously, looks compatible habis.

[Syafiq & Hical]

[Birthday Couple plus Lover]

Next stop, guess where?? Shesha-shing!!!! wohu! This time is @ Pyramisa (Clarke Quay)!! The place was much more posher compare to the place we always went...as usual, ordered 2 shesha. (bubble gum and watermelon flavour) and its taste ahem...NICE! seriously, it's too bad, The God Father Firdaus can't make it as he was away on a vacation.. half way thru, Hafitz went to meet up his frens awhile and Titi went back home. boring.... can't deny that this time around, it's much more mendak compare 2 previous one ah.... shooo shad!!

[Group Photo]

End up, all went back after shesha as its 11pm plus and transportation is limited...janice, hical and syafiq took a cab back to East side, birthday couple continue spending time together for the night and me and Baby Layla....??

ehem...! we spend time together la like duh uh!!! we took the night rider back to her home-town and spend time together till wee in the morning...and ended up sleeping @ her home! hehe....(with her parent's approval la!!!)

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No Matter Where i'll go, My Body and Soul Would Be Back Here..

2008-12-26T13:05:00.003+08:00

Dear Diary...

Well...today is the last outing of 2008 where we celebrate both amy and nisa birthday.. all plan is still pending and may change last minute. For what i can say, hope it would be a blast and enjoy the moment!

Tomorrow, I will be leaving to Melacca by 8am. Going back to my kampung...how i miss the sea beb! But spending the nite there and the following day, will be heading to Cameroon Highland for 2 days than back to my kampung..really had no idea when i will be back in Singapore.

To Someone....I know you will be very sad and full of tears when thinking that i will be away for awhile...i knew u gonna miss me like hell...me too dear!! watever it is, i trust u aite...u knew what i mean...for now, im just worried for you...your boredom at home, the situation at home and more...i will be back soon aite...my phone will always on for you...don't u worry aite baby...

Btw, thanx for your dedications yesterday...happi belated hapi anniversary to u too.!!! muackz! im not good in words but i shall leave a poetry later for you aite....baby, listern up....behave ok. beep me anytime u need me..im always there for you....muackz!! hearts u belly mush!

Social Nite cum 'Prom Nite' (17 Dec 08,Wednesday) Part 3

2008-12-18T22:49:00.000+08:00

She-sha-shing @ Al-Majlis

[Niza,Bob,Titi]

[Sabri,Atikah,Bobby]

[Bobby, Layla,Didi]

[Titi & Shasha]
[Shasha & Amy]
-Alahai...manjanya-

-Twin Brothers-
-erm...ehem ehem.hehe-
-Titi Goeslaw!!-

-One and only, Niza!-
-Hot Couple-

-What can i say, he just can't resist the temptation-

-enjoying himself...haha!!-Smootching is always in the air during the event. same goes to this couple..really can't separate them and just see how rooomannnttiica they are..susah la kan!

[Didi & Layla]

-See what i mean???-

-ehem...shhh...it's love baby...LOVE-

-Meet the One nose dragon-

-Amy is totally good boy turn bad now-

-alahai...cute rite!?-

-Atikah having adrenaline rush..hehe-

-Ceh!! da pandai my lil bro ni-

[Didi]

Here lies the story of A God father name Firdaus. He never smokes before but he was hook with shesha. As u can see, he having a deep breath of the shesha....

See how he Huff and Puff....

He Huff and Puff till he fall sick! but he was too addicted to it, and still Huffing and Puffing even though on the death bed...

Till...he finally rest in peace!

All Hail God Father Fir!! In memories with the love of his live, Shesha!....hehehe

[Bobby]

[Shasha]

[Sabri]

-shhhhh!! sweet ke??-

-feeling2 emo shit!-

-Too much of shesha see what happen to ur face!haha-

[Shasha & Bobby]
-Its time to pay up the bills man!-

-Love this picture...PERFECT!-

-Glamerous Babes of the Night-

-Hunkies for the Night-

-Couples of the Night....swwwweet!-

-Going home!!-

[Sabri & Layla]

-Jokes with Fir and Bobby-
-The tired, sleeping Amy-

Spending time with Baby Layla after all the wonderful event today was a best way to end the day with a smile! Really do had one of the best time of my life with her that early morning...u know i know rite...heheh

-Bobby on the phone with Ryan-

-Damn Cute kepe!! Layla waiting for me while im on the phone-

-Obviously, end the day with a kiss!!!! BIG KISS!!!-

What a day i had...event was superb..frens was all in a high spirit...heart fulls of love...what can i ask more?? a very very very nice day...one of the day in my life that sure will be memorable for live!

Social Nite cum 'Prom Nite' (17 Dec 08,Wednesday) Part 2

2008-12-18T22:16:00.000+08:00

-Journey To 'Prom Nite'-

-Smoking Break- [ Titi & Bobby]

[Bobby, Niza, Bob]

[Bobby, Titi, Bob]
[Bobby,Didi,Nurul,Bob]

-Group Photo 1-

-Group Photo 2-

-Group Photo 3-

[shikin,Bobby,Ain]
[Shikin,Bobby,Maggie]
-Fab Ladies From My CP 2.1-

-My Love, Baby Layla-

-Baby Layla with her Love's Frens-

-All My Close Frens-

[Atikah & Sabri]
[Bobby,Sister Jane,Layla]

[Bobby & Sabri 1]

[Bobby & Atikah 1]
[Bobby & Yu Jun]

[Bobby & Sabri 2]

[Bobby & Atikah 2]

[Bobby & Fatin]

[Bobby & Shol]-Pretty Ladies From Class A-

[Fatin & Fir]--Sweet rite?!

-Hmm...My Long Lost Sister Lurve-

[Hottest Guy, Suhaimi][ Sexy Bomb-Niza,Titi,Nurul ][Fir & Atikah]

-Time To Dance!!!--Letting Go The Vibres Within-

Social Nite cum 'Prom Nite' (17 Dec 08,Wednesday) Part 1

2008-12-18T22:00:00.000+08:00

Dear Diary...

Time: 3pm
Venue: ITE Simei Function Hall

That's the place i shall remember always!! It's where we start our nusing course and it's where we end it after 2 years (for some of us).

To be frank, the event is kinda dull and lack of attendency. Most probably due to holidays week and also it's started in the day time. im sure if its starts around late evening, the turn-out would be grate. Make it a real prom nite thingy...fooh!! thats sure a blast bebey!

started the day with a very bad mood cause of miscommunication with suhaimi. planning was perfectly done when suddenly he decided to fetch nisa and didi rather than me and my baby.. so, kinda fucking piss off with him but never..her princess mah...its ok.understandable!

so end up, me fetch my baby in a cab and due to my surprise to see her walking towards the texi with her dress that i bought for her, her make up on, her newly hair done, her high heels..FOOH! That was a superb sight that i had for a moment..what a beauty man!!

meet amy, nisa, fir and didi at simei and went in together. star karat kepe datang lambat!!! i was busy scanning the crowd..see who came, looking for hafitz, scanning the april intake, but i fail to hear mdm Mages calling out to me..im sorry!!! well, as usual, i hug her...a very tight hug! i miss mdm Mages...tears do came down a lil but never be obvious la..than headed to where we suppose to sit.

teachers performance on that day was hilarious!! they acted well as a student to imitate on our behaviour during class...there's a few part where we do terasa! example: the part where miss siti act as a sleepy gerl..its exactly how hafitz did in class..the part where one teacher act she was smoking in the toilet and take her shirt off and thats exactly what i did!! OMG!!

last event of the day, was the dance floor..kinda lame' cause the Deejay sux by keep changing songs...idiot! how do u expect us to dance with a pop songs???? and how do u expect us to dance a techno songs than hip hop than back to techno??? funny rite?? but watever it is, i can see hafitz do dance and let it go! well done bro...some others were also joining in...and to the april intake, u all may be very noisy, but im sorry, all of u sux when comes to dance floor! all scared and no one dares to came to the middle to dance...oh well what can i say, January intake rulez baby!

songs are too tempted for me to dance but i just have to control it cause the lights is not totally lights off..but oh well, i manage to dance with my baby!!! grinding a hip hop songs with her...THAT was a nice dance ok...i hack care people will say what or what they may think...as long as im having fun dancing with my baby....and ya, i saw my X 's frens saw me dancing with her or watsoever...go on gerl and report to ur boss...go on! me care less baby!!! nosy people are just a plain stupid human beings where they got nth to do! im having fun taking pictures, mixing and blending with peoples, spending time with my baby and frens...

after the event, the whole of us, ( Niza, Titi, Hafitz, Nisa, Amy, Didi, Sabri, Fir, Atikah A Class,Me and Layla) went to shesha at Al-Majlis @ Haji lane...from 7 to 10 we sit there...chilling, talking, play games and teasing around... than we proceed to zam zam to eat but titi when off first. so basically around 1115pm we left and separate from there...left me, layla, amy, fir and sabri taking the train home except for me lor.hehe

hehe...as what i know i reached home @5am in the morning...spending quality time with my baby layla...was very romantic, meaningful conversation, laughters and tears..but its was a perfect ending for the day....im sure baby layla will agree to it.hehe!! waiting for the next outing on either 19 or 26 Dec.see ya soon!!!

(p/s: pictures will be updating soon)

A Difficult Goodbye To My Friends In CP 2.2

2008-12-09T16:01:00.003+08:00

We shared...
laughs of joy,
moments of pain,
tears of happiness!

We earned...
care,
understanding,
as well as a place,
in the heart of one another!

We talked...
about our dreams,
about being nuisance for life,
just about everything imaginable!

When in trouble..
All of you helped with all your strength,
strength from your love,
love from your warm heart!

When asked why...
you simply smiled,
you questioned back" What are friends for?"

We walked right beside each other
as we felt a friendly breeze,
one that I shall never forget,
the time we had debrief together!

No matter where you'll be,
you'll always be in my heart,
just promise me that I'll be in yours!

All of you are an angel,
who walked into my life!

I would hate to say goodbye
because it seems too soon
But then again we never will
since a part of us
are always with each other

Smile always for me....PEACE, GOD BLESS

~BoBBY secretly ConfesseD~

The Final Lap

Journey back To School [part 2]

A Dream that Awakes Me...

Jalan Raya 2009 ~WARNING~ (Heavy-Post) [part 1]

After A Very Long Exhausted Week...

G.R.T recruitment..

Clueless, Speechless,angry but funny..

My Little Nephew...

A Quick Random Post

--Heavy Post-- (Bugis + Fishing with LB) (Drama of Amy & Nisa)

It's finally 90kg!!

Breaking-Fast @ Geylang with Brothers

Finally, All is Done!!

First Day Of a Holy Month...

One Tiny Rain-Drops Does Helps..

No comment on paitau'ers but still enjoy...

Enjoyment on Saturday!!

I'm Back and Raring to Go!

Movie Of The Year (Part 1)

shopping shopping ZAB

Family..Friends..Bitch..LB...

To HELL with PiGs..!

Low in Mood...

Letting Out The Steam...

GOAL Fiesta!!!!

A Quick post..

Back To The Past...

She's My Dream Girl To Be...

Post Morning Syndrome

My Left Ankle..cak!!

Make-Over..!

Time for REHAB...

ToYou I Pray...

Freaking Out For The OP...!

PMS or just simple PARANOID...

Late Posting...

Journey to Dream House

That's My Baby Boo...

Demon lurking within me...

Awww...How sweet can she be.

April Fool Day Being a Self Fool...

Movie Marathon Tuesday Express...

I'm back with a renewed soul and desire...

What a day for me in ward today....

Movie-Mania @ Woodland Library Via Lappy

Twist and Turns of Love Tales...

Confession Within Me...~~~Friday Day The 13~~!

Mount-Faber 3km walk Plus Walking @ Hort Park..

Cool Saturday!!

Mr Chris Wedding Cum Outing ( 31 Jan & 1 Feb 09)

Confussed + Anger + Sad + Lost

Control Your Temper

Movies Im Waiting For

Chinese New Year Da`ey For Me

Poetry For My Friends

Time to be serious now..finish it and get over it!

A New Year, A New Thinking

Getting ready to Shop and Bond...

Shopping for Me....

Advance Birthday Celebration...

No Matter Where i'll go, My Body and Soul Would Be Back Here..

Social Nite cum 'Prom Nite' (17 Dec 08,Wednesday) Part 3

Social Nite cum 'Prom Nite' (17 Dec 08,Wednesday) Part 2

Social Nite cum 'Prom Nite' (17 Dec 08,Wednesday) Part 1

A Difficult Goodbye To My Friends In CP 2.2

Confession Within Me...~Friday Day The 13!